somewhat related to the Modafinil topic:
In total, I spend 9 to 10 hours per day at school and 1 hour commuting in either direction to get to and from my university. In addition to this time, I occasionally get called in for work or end up doing homework or having to run errands for my mom after I'm done with school. I rarely get to settle down at home until 8-9pm. In addition to that, I only get between 5 to 6 hours of sleep every night. Many nights however, can go entirely without sleep because the sleep never comes when I lay down in bed. Here's the kicker - I don't drink coffee unless it's exam time and even then, it's only 1 small latte from starbucks. I've even cut back on the amount of soda I take per day (1 can of coke with my lunch while at school, and 1 with my dinner).
The only thing I *can* do is either a) double my caffeine dosage per day and get major stomach cramps and the jitters that too much caffiene gives me or b) wait a month or two for my mind and body to get used to the tiredness.
Who knows... If I had the modafinil, I might be able to focus more rather than fall asleep in my textbooks every time I crack them open.
In addition to my newfound insomnia, the stress of all my friends asking me for help in the IT courses is really killing me mentally. The morons never leave me alone and always find ways to contact me when i'm not on msn. Worse still, I told off my best friend last night and nearly screamed at him today because he wouldn't leave me alone about the damn assignment that was due this morning.
My newfound reprieve to this is, unfortunately one of the few thing i never thought i'd do - i've taken up weed. Not to a heavy extent mind you, just enough once every couple of days or weeks to get a buzz with some of my friends but not be totally out of it... I'm not addicted, I just enjoy the feeling. It gets my mind off school on the days I don't have school and well... it just feels good.
I'm not going to justify smoking it because frankly... I don't have any reason to do it - i just like having the buzz on occassion. Just like people who drink occassionally like to get drunk.
Why exactly IS it illegal in the first place?
edit:
bleh... now that I look at what I wrote, I don't think I was able to get my point across