now that this is all over, i wanted to go on record with a few things.
as it seems always MUST happen, due to the goings on at the end of this comp, i have been painted as some vicious heartless animal but also as usual, this is not so.
first off, during the competition i had nothing bad to say to anybody and infact did nothing but congratulate the admin here, my teammates, and even racers from other boards on jobs well done. on top of that, there was a huge controversy in which many if not most participants acted pettyly (my teammates included), which i didn't even get involved in. this was mostly because i felt the dq was correct in assessing the penalty, but also figured in was the fact that in general, many people react to me very unfavorably regardless of what i say and i did not want to make it any worse, even if my points were valid. so i kept them to myself.
where the trouble initially started was when i was alerted that hugo boss posted some highly inflammatory remarks towards my team on another board. all i did there was respond in a pissed off manner just like anybody else would. how i am the villian for responding to a petty and unwarranted attack against my team and therefor myself i do not quite understand. if any of you saw somebody get punched in the face on the street, would you hold it against the guy if he kicked the ass of the guy who did it?? for me personally, the answer would be no.
with the veilside situation, there was a little more to it than the fact that the same old irritating, "i would have done better if i tried harder but i couldn't so that's why i didn't win" schtick irritated me. what many of you might not know is that this user has repeatedly on many occasions, attempted to intimidate me via pm's in every possible way and has REPEATEDLY threatened to murder me and my family in many different ways. again, i can not speak for everybody on the boards, but for me, somebody like that needs to be engaged whenever possible. when somebody is trying to scare me in a macho bs way, the only way i know to combat that is to show that person that i have no fear of them. one way to do that is to ridicule them publicly because after all, who would publicly embarrass somebody if they were afraid that person would murder his family. i will concede that perhaps this was not the time or place for it. but man, does anybody find that excuse he gave for not winning to be anything less than completely irritating?
anyway, to sum it all up. the only trouble i made during this comp was in defense of my team's honor and to show sombody trying to bully me and strike fear into me that they would have better luck getting jim morrison's autograph than to accomplish that mission.
i would have done nothing to take away from this comp and i enjoyed every moment of it until i was forced into a situation to get nasty with these people. what is sad and unjust is that i will be remembered as the one who tried to turn this comp ugly when quite a few drivers acted classlessy and petty for no other reason than their team was getting beaten in this competition. if everybody just needs me so they can point their finger and say "that's the bad guy", there honestly isn't much i can do about that. there never will be. what i can say with a clear conscience though is that i was pushed into what i did to hugo and veilside by THEIR actions, not the fact that i'm a racing psychopath.
of course everybody will likely repond to this as if they didn't read a word of it. there are lots of people who really really need me so that they can point their finger and say "that's the bad guy". well sorry folks, i'm not tony montana, nor do i think i am. i'm just a guy who doesn't like to take $hit off people who are just starting it because of their own petty insecurities. anyway, to the ears who are receptive to this, i say thank you very much. and to those that aren't i say nevermind all these bs reasons you come up with to stand against me whenever possible. what's the REAL reason you don't like me? i think for many of you it goes far beyond what i say and do. infact, it probably has a lot more to do with yoursleves than me. and as for my ego, i find it ironically humorous to see the names of some of those so quick to judge. i'd love to get along with everybody. contrary to popular opinion, i don't much like fighting with everybody. the only problem with that is that there's a lot of people out there with an axe to grind with me and again, i believe pretty firmly that it has every bit as much to do with their opinion of themselves as it does me.
later everybody. maybe next time we race we can ALL act a little bit more civilized and not just wake up the rankor monster then blame it for eating people.