Freshman Year. Help.

[McLaren]

I never said I had a harder life then you, or anyone else, just Anes from his teenage description. I try to stay quiet, I know it sounds idiotic but I stay quiet. Last night, I just got pulled in, I didn't start an argument. My mom was drunk and represented me as a mopey punk who walks like he's half-braindead. That's being said to an A-B student with college aspirations and a love for driving (or any form, such as GT).

Fair enough.

I spend less time around because I'm just more independent-oriented because I'm a future person. I'm a person who would rather be alone or around one special person than be with a group. Do I try to do anything? Yes, I was about to call Child Services but my PC got taken and Kirsten didn't know the number (which surprised me).

That's not helping mate. That's actually a quick way to piss her off. Not saying she may not deserve it, but alcoholics don't deal with their addiction by having their kids taken away. That actually further complicates it.

Unfortunately at your age, I do understand that doing anything will be hard b/c most people do not see you at the age have any sort of influence on her, so they choose to step in for you and that causes you to be removed from her. Otherwise, I would have suggested talking to your counselor or someone else.

I try, honestly, but I would rather leave the life of my family in the past. My brother is the last one left. My sister's a pothead with aspirations of nothing, and my mom's a semi-alcoholic who uses forms of manipulation to trick people.
It's just me and my brother now. We're the last men of the Hall name, so we both check each other to make sure we aren't about to do something stupid. And I'm not caring for anyone else but him, and the few friends I have.

I understand I should do more, but I can't. I don't feel like this is my family anymore.

I understand where you're coming from (I have a close friend whose family went through similar issues). But, what I am saying is to not completely throw them out of your life. I'm sure there must still be some moments you have spent with your family where everything was fine & everyone got along. Even if they are far & few, you should keep your mother & sister in your thoughts in the form of those better times.

I say this because there may be a day when your mother has alcohol poisoning or your sister overdoses on something. I'm not trying to put unpleasant thoughts in your head by this, but rather that if such a day ever comes, your true emotions may very well have wished that you could have been together more despite what you say now (though I know you've said you've tried) & that you do care.

Believe me. I went through those emotions when I wasn't much older than you & your life can become much harder than you think you have it now.

 

[GT_Prologue5]

I suppose you're right, I mean I have to look at it from both sides of the pond. I don't really think "in the now." I don't stop to think, besides when my thoughts pace. It's just I did nothing wrong, I mean it's not like I never spend time with my family. And don't worry about the "putting bad thoughts" thing. I know I have the moment of my family. It's just been without my father, I don't see what makes us a family, besides the fact we live in the same house.

I'm going to stop as I'm going off-topic here.

 

[McLaren]

I suppose you're right, I mean I have to look at it from both sides of the pond. I don't really think "in the now." I don't stop to think, besides when my thoughts pace. It's just I did nothing wrong, I mean it's not like I never spend time with my family. And don't worry about the "putting bad thoughts" thing. I know I have the moment of my family. It's just been without my father, I don't see what makes us a family, besides the fact we live in the same house.

I'm going to stop as I'm going off-topic here.

I will say that you give the situation more thought than someone else your age, so you do "stop to think" as you say.

And no one said it was your fault or that you didn't spend time with them. I apologize if my words came across that way. Things happen in life though, that we can't predict. If I knew that I would lose my parents & 2 siblings, I know I would have done things differently & I'm sure you would have done the same if you knew where you would be today back then. But, it's not something anyone can say is your fault because you didn't spend time with them or etc. Things just happened out of your control, and now you're just playing the cards life has dealt you the best you can. 👍

 

[GT_Prologue5]

Good point. I don't know the future, but I can make the present a bit better for now. It doesn't feel like I stop to think, I think, the thought goes away, new one comes up. It's an endless cycle. And no apologies needed, everyone would want to change something. I wish I could have came to my dad earlier and saved him. Fate played out that I didn't. But I'll accept that and care for what I have. Thanks man. 👍

 

[GT_Prologue5]

Yet another story of the drunkenness comes out...except this time I didn't get involved. Apparently my mom's boyfriend called her a w**** and told her to *have intercourse with* (to put it lightly) several past boyfriends.

Next thing you know the cops are in my house and her boyfriend's calling a cab when this, this is just childish.

In other news it's been all good, except at school I'm becoming more pissed because every time I see Kirsten, near here, in any general direction towards her, she gives me this blank glare. Even to someone who was a friend, a *hi* would be a bit nice. Just throwing that out there.

 

[CaptianChili]

I can relate to a horrid freshman year. I moved away from my hometown to a new city, and I was lost because there was only 3 months left of school and I knew nobody. Now I am in grade 12, i have a lot of good friends, and life is good

And about your life, do not be afraid to talk to a councilor or someone like that. I went through some really bad parts of my life, but talking to someone who listens and can provide insightful advise is really nice to take away some of the emotional pain one could keep bottled up.👍

And about that girl, if you are trying to impress her (dont know if you are lol) just be very VERY confident. Be 100% confident in every step you take and every action you do. She will begin to notice you, and depending on your motives, you can take things from there.

Good luck with your life man, it sounds rough

 

[GT_Prologue5]

I can relate to a horrid freshman year. I moved away from my hometown to a new city, and I was lost because there was only 3 months left of school and I knew nobody. Now I am in grade 12, i have a lot of good friends, and life is good

And about your life, do not be afraid to talk to a councilor or someone like that. I went through some really bad parts of my life, but talking to someone who listens and can provide insightful advise is really nice to take away some of the emotional pain one could keep bottled up.👍

And about that girl, if you are trying to impress her (dont know if you are lol) just be very VERY confident. Be 100% confident in every step you take and every action you do. She will begin to notice you, and depending on your motives, you can take things from there.

Good luck with your life man, it sounds rough

It's cool you can relate, with Kirsten, no, there's no way I'm going to impress her, because we're not even friends. You would've had to look back further to find out what was really going on there. (a massive fail for me) With the counselor, I've talked to them and I honestly do not like counselors. Nothing against them, I just don't like it. I'd rather speak to my brother about stuff because, well, he's my brother.

 

[GT_Prologue5]

End of the short week for me, here's some twists for the first time in forever.

- I awake Monday morning and of course, whenever I say "no longer friends with Kirsten, etc. etc., I always have one final thing that just doesn't sever the cord yet. I came home in a rage of unknown fury, but was calmed down with some GT5, my normal thing lately.

-Advancing to Tuesday, it's a regular school day, but I come home gleeful, the exact opposite of the day before. Then I pull a risky move- I decided I wanted to talk to Helen (first time since I turned it all awkward) and actually, it was completely harmless. Finished Algebra work and headed to bed really early for once, feeling exceptional.

-And come today, the medium day, still with some of yesterday's bliss, but nothing too eventful. Maybe I was wrong for a bit, and as I said to some "Take control, instead of waiting for the miracle."

-All the while my French class is great, in English we're reading Romeo and Juliet, which I find delightful, if not perverted and crude at times. Everything's...good. Now just wait for Christmas.

 

[Akmuq]

Enjoy Christmas man.

 

[RAZRr1275]

Hope you guys had a good Christmas.

And to the OP after just glancing at this thread and judging by what you haven't talked about it seems that the thing that you're missing in HS is a solid friend group. That's the biggest key to getting through high school quickly and easily. I'd spend some time really attempting to get a core of good friends.

 

[The Gran Finale]

I've read this entire thread over the course of it's existence and was surprised to learn that GT_Prologue5 had been banned. Anyone care to elaborate?

 

[Apok]

I've read this entire thread over the course of it's existence and was surprised to learn that GT_Prologue5 had been banned. Anyone care to elaborate?

It's only for a month. Read the banned user log.

 

[The Gran Finale]

It's only for a month. Read the banned user log.

Ah, thanks. I had no idea there was a banned user log. 👍

 

[Anes]

How did this kid get himself banned. I've never seen anyone suck up so much to the regulars on a forum in my life yet he still managed to get banned.

ahhh lol

 

[Joey D]

He started messing with an R/C forum that was talking poorly about GTP. I believe he only got booted for a month.

 

[Akmuq]

How did this kid get himself banned. I've never seen anyone suck up so much to the regulars on a forum in my life yet he still managed to get banned.

ahhh lol

Are you always trying to start an argument with this guy? Also weren't you banned twice now? First time I'm guessing it was starting fights. Second time... oohh let me guess. Starting fights?

 

[astrosdude91]

How did this kid get himself banned. I've never seen anyone suck up so much to the regulars on a forum in my life yet he still managed to get banned.

ahhh lol

Haha! We've missed you, Anes!

I remember seeing his and Peter's posts on that R/C forum. They ate them alive over there. And on top of that, they get a month ban over here. Kinda makes you feel bad for them.

 

[Owen.C93]

Haha! We've missed you, Anes!

I remember seeing his and Peter's posts on that R/C forum. They ate them alive over there. And on top of that, they get a month ban over here. Kinda makes you feel bad for them.

I did think it was a bit stupid when I saw that Peter attempted to stick up for GTP on that forum, but when GT_Prologue5 joined him I had to IRL facepalm.

He was pretty close to a ban before hand, I wonder if he comes back with a clean sheet :S

Let us know when you get back GT_-Prologue5

 

[Anes]

Are you always trying to start an argument with this guy?

I'm not. He's not even here to argue with me, is he. I do find this situation funny tho. I tend to speak my mind. It's how I was raised.

Also weren't you banned twice now? First time I'm guessing it was starting fights. Second time... oohh let me guess. Starting fights?

First time was personal attacks, the 2nd time could be a multitude of things but the last infraction was for posting about how fun it is to play GT5 drunk in a road safety thread.

 

[eSZee]

Are you always trying to start an argument with everyone

Fixed that for you.

 

[AClockworkGrape]

Hmmm.
Makes me wonder how difficult it is to get in an Honours English class nowadays.

Should be "They write their teenage info on internet forums."

At our school you simply sign up for the class? I hadn't taken advanced classes before but I decided why not? Really regretting that decision for Physics.

Anyway, I actually laughed once or twice reading the original post. 👍

 

[Small_Fryz]

the last infraction was for posting about how fun it is to play GT5 drunk in a road safety thread.

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Peter and Prologue will be back soon. A bit harsh to get a month ban, but I guess the mods needed to make an example....

 

[GT_Prologue5]

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Peter and Prologue will be back soon. A bit harsh to get a month ban, but I guess the mods needed to make an example....

It wasn't harsh Fryz, it was deserved. I'm not going to suck up or whatever here, but what me and Peter did was stupid. I hope no one else follows what I did.

Since then, I started my new semster of HS, and I have my Science, L'Histoire, Francais 2, and Intro to Business. I certaintly enjoy my classes now, I'm pretty problem free and just hope to slip back in with nonchalance here at GTP. And thanks to the unnamed Mod who banned me, it was actually nice to not feel like GTP was a habit anymore.

I rarely viewed around by the way, and when I did, I regularly stuck to the Site Feedback section. I also read the irony about me and Peter getting banned in the GTP Awards, I thought it was rather funny.

And don't dig too much into Anes guys, we're just 2 minds that don't get along.

 

[Akmuq]

And don't dig too much into Anes guys, we're just 2 minds that don't get along.

One mind one troll. He also got banned again so he'll be fuming at me for a month.

 

[GT_Prologue5]

One mind one troll. He also got banned again so he'll be fuming at me for a month.

Quite predictable behavior. I have nothing against him, I just don't see why because I'm younger makes me a target. There's a good group around my age here.

And all I can say is that it feels rather good to be back.

 

[tyl0r_r]

Anes for president. It IS fun playing GT5 drunk.

Congratulations GT_Prologue5, somebody on my friends list won something! Haha.

Hoping I'm still around next year, the 10 pointers have been flying.

 

[GT_Prologue5]

Thanks tyl0r_r.

As for today I had the next best thing to no school: 2 hour delays. My schedule was all messed up, and lunch drastically sucked. Just got back from heading to Kohl's Wally Mart, BK with the famille.

Okay day in my opinion. Oh, and I also started writing poems. Just throwin' that out there for you all.

Also, one more thing to say about this quote:

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Peter and Prologue will be back soon. A bit harsh to get a month ban, but I guess the mods needed to make an example....

The real reasoning was when Peter apparently sent a PM to GTP Mods, stating he was a Mod somewhere else. The staff thought I was in on this (which I never had any knowledge until an accusation) and took us both out. I still deserved it, and I tend to not care, but it's just if anyone needed the final say.

 

[Akmuq]

What would Peter be a mod of? Jamaica forums? Any forums I've seen him in he is just 'that guy'.
Anyways I think we should stop talking about socal-gate. Leave it to PM's with the two involved, a mod or GTP's nosiest member(sorry tankuroded)

 

[GT_Prologue5]

What would Peter be a mod of? Jamaica forums? Any forums I've seen him in he is just 'that guy'.
Anyways I think we should stop talking about socal-gate. Leave it to PM's with the two involved, a mod or GTP's nosiest member(sorry tankuroded)

I think it needs left alone now. We don't need anymore mention of it.

 

[GT_Prologue5]

If anyone's up for reading this anymore, how 'bout I talk some more?

Today was generally unexciting, except my friend Mike who blasts me about reading a biography on Karl Marx (he's fine with Marxism, but doesn't like how I chose a 450-page book. The assignment only had to be 100 pages.)

Then on the bus this Kyle kid (who hates me cause I pushed his bag out of MY seat a couple day ago) decided to call me 'a Communist bastard.' Luckily, this girl who doesn't really know me and had to sit next to me had a nice defense motive, and another kid told me he thought it was cool I was studying the topic.

Lesson for today: being a study of political philosophy can make for some interesting conversations.

Also, has anyone been, say, offended by my choice of title/avatar?