Mkay, I've been lurking this site since 2007, and reading this entire thread is pretty much what compelled me to finally register. Yeah, the GT5 stuff didn't lure me in. Mostly because I've yet to save up for a PS3.
I probably should introduce myself and the reason I actually read this whole thing and registered.
So, I'm a sophomore in high school, and pretty much share exactly the same situation GT_Prologue has with Kristen, and some of his insanity.
So, my status in school. I'm just the kid everyone either loves or hates. The "popular" guys tend to hate me because I'm friends with all the pretty girls (more on that later), and I get along with the "weird" guys that are actually the more trustworthy ones. The ones that would always have your back when you're stuck. And the girls...I really don't think there are any girls that dislike me. I instantly get along with them. Probably because I was raised to respect them (not be a douche and be like "MAKE ME A SAMMICH." and understand them better than even other girls for some reason. Being a good listener always has its...advantages.
Okay, so I've been friends with this girl for a good while, and she was almost literally the guy version of me in most ways. Needless to say, I was kind of smitten with her. She kind of sent out "signals" (Well...they weren't signals. More "UGH. WHAT ARE YOU DOING. I
WANT YOU." like things that I didn't realize were actually that obvious until it was too late. I honestly have no freaking idea why I didn't do anything. She was pretty much perfect for me, and is the reason I'm still alive. So...yeah, I kinda "loved", in an "Okay, you're pretty much the only thing keeping me up when everyone else is oblivious to the insanity going on in my head, so I'd honestly to anything for her. Not a puppy love "Oh I want to be with you forever and we'll get married when we get out of high school thing) I finally told her how I felt (hah, like a half year later), and...I waited too long. The
closer I got to her, the deeper of a hole I'd dug because she started to think of me as a brother. Which is possibly what's gonna go on with you and Kristen. (but possibly not. She never told me to buy a heart. That's pretty...strange.) But Kristin seems like a carbon-copy of my friend otherwise.
And seriously, sex is...nothing. It's not a thing to determine how serious a relationship is. It's either just plain stupid (for example, my friend is a father. He's my age.) or just for plain fun (what most of us think of it as). I'll admit to having a couple of "buddies." It genuinely was nothing, as much as I wanted it to be. Sex actually kinda devoids a relationship. Sure, you get a natural "Woah. We just did it. She's mine." impulse, but to be completely honest, you start to lose a bit of respect for the girl. Of course, you think she's more beautiful, but you also...it's hard to convey into words. Do you really want Kristin to descend to that? Not that I'm assuming you
will, but it's bound to happen the way you were posting.
The "dating scene" is usually nothing but lust at our hormonal stages. It's pretty much impossible to find someone you'd truly love to wake up next to with for the rest of your life at this point because it's usually your hormones looking for a girl, and not actually you. Yeah, you may argue, "No. It's different." No it's not different. Yes, you probably would last a good while if you don't do anything stupid, but realize, there will be other girls that will be like her. Not any as "significant", but will impact your life just as much. Trust me, been there, done that. I've managed to find two other "girls who completely understand and trust me and really have changed my life forever" since the first friend. It's just a cycle. I'd be willing to argue though.
And there's absolutely nothing wrong with having girls as friends. My friends have been at least 75% girls my whole life and I've turned out fine. I'm
the guy friend for most of them. The one they always ask for advice and trust with their life. Which the pretty (yes, I refuse to call a girl hot.) girls really like in a guy.
Anything else?
BTW, the songs stuck in my head during writing this post went from "Pre Ex-Girlfriend"-Five Iron Frenzy, which I just love:
Watch her on the floor tonight,
Feel the crush she will incite,
The spark of hope she will ignite
a beautiful sight!
Softer than the lightest snows,
Watch her as the moment slows
In my face the door will close...
and there she goes.
To "Closer" by Nine Inch Nails. I think you all know how that goes.
I'm missing so much of what I wanted to say haha...
Oh, and obligatory "Freshman..." sigh.
Freshman year itself is a total blowoff/transition year. You'll have no trouble
getting through it. Just a matter of loving it. And honestly, not too many people love freshman year.