No.
I am almost never happy, and when I am happy it is ususally for all the wrong reasons.
I am always sad, lonely, depressed, and very angry. I try to combat it by going out and buying stuff, but that only buys momentary happiness and it doesn't really lift my mood that much anyway.
I'm sick of my life, I am sick of my existance, everyday I wish I could just wipe it all away and start new, start somewhere else with a new family, a new face, just a completely new life.
Always angry, always mean, I have secluded myself and cut off pretty much all contact from the outside world. I don't really leave my house, why would I? People are out there, and people make me scared, people make me sad, people make me angry.
Friends? Gone. Family? Gone. Gone, gone, gone, everything that can be good about life feels so lost to me. Atleast I am breathing people say... but what good is breathing when you do not enjoy breathing?
I hate being like this. I wish I could be like everyone else, but I can't force myself to put on a smile show the world a fake me.
People disgust me. Liars, cheaters, backstabbers, everyone else is out to hurt everyone else it seems. Love, kindness, friendship, these are all things I now not know. If you are lucky enough to have them in your life than I truly envy you.
It's a game. Life is only a game. It is a game I can not win at. No matter how hard I try or what I do I can never even get a head even a little tiny bit.
Happiness? I hardly remember that state.
Depression? Welcome to that state. Population: Me.
(btw, Rumple 0wnZ YUO)
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