Prayer for Mom and Me

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Gil
Your dad is still "lurking" in the back of your mind.
Every thing he taught you...still there.
Every bit of advice...still there.

It's been eight years, and I still say to myself: "So, what what Dad do in this situation?"
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I've realized this, I'm a pretty smart teen (compared to the rest I'm probably a ****ing genius). But earlier this year, I finished my 8th grade year and for the last quarter I had an F for language arts. Never my strong suit, but I remember this: I was sitting in the car, just me and dad, talking. It was only the second quarter then, and I was 1% off from all A's. I saiid this, and he gave me a grim look and said "you could do better". He knew I was better than that, and now as I head into my freshman year, someone physically might not be telling me, but when I see the jar off ashes that sits on my desk, I'll hear him say "You can do better." Thanks for helping me say that, Gil. It just sucks, not to mention the fact that I saw him die. And I could do nothing. He didn't even look like my dad, just a pail body laying on the floor. I couldn't do a thing, I had to stick my hand down his throat to help him. I also remember standing outside, in the freezing snow, and we got a call from my mom, from the hospital, and all I heard was: "dad's dead." You have no clue the emotional impact of that who's already emotionally unstable. Plus, my Grandma died just last Sptember. And then, 2 days before father's day, I had a dream, where god granted me one more day to see my father, and it was my mom and dad, me, Jake and Amber, and we just talked. The day after, I had a dream in which I saw him again, where he walked past me and high-fived me. I feel that God did grant me that final day with my Dad, and that I will never forget it. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest, I feel nervous and shaky just typing this.
 
Catharthis rocks.
I understand how you feel.
A lot of the things Dad and I disagreed on have been resolved since he died.
This may sound strange, but the one thing I felt the most "at odds with"
was cleared up my first or second day back at work.
My dad "spoke" to me throughout the day.
He was a preacher, and I was getting a STRONG message to read a passage in the Bible.
When I finally read it, it was like him telling me the point of contention that we had was resolved, and I was okay, and okay with him.
 
So I definitely just read this as if it just happened and feel like an idiot. Sorry for your loss anyways...
 
My condolences man, we don't appreciate the people in our life sometimes until we lose them, this has made me think about this and now appreciating my family and friends, not that I usually don't, but now just a tad more.
 
Eric.
I was traipsing thru my memories and Aug 2 is/was a big day for me.
I went into the Navy,
I exited the Navy,
One of my neices has a birthday,
The day I lost my Dad.
When I used to spend lots of time here, I used this forum, and my many friends that also spent a lot of time here then to help me pull thru that last one.

Not one Aug 2nd has passed since 2002 that hasn't been a bit "raw" for me.
 

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