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This thread isn't about why I requested a ban, but about something that happened during the time. It's quite late, but I really have been thinking about what I almost did.
But to the background.
The reason I requested the ban was because I was going to see a psychiatrist in Europe. Now, you're probably thinking what the psychiatrist thought when I told him. Well, recently, I'd been having a lot of thoughts about life and why I was thinking such things (in simple terms, I felt old.
). But I didn't really feel comfortable talking about such things without someone I trusted next to me. So, I decided to meet Jen. and have her with me when I started talking to the physician.
Well, after I told him why I came, he declared it'd be best I suddenly not come to him for the rest of the week because he felt unless I was prepared to stay longer than a week, I go home and consult a psychiatrist in the US.
This pretty much just destroyed the whole reason I came. But since I had 3-4 days left of the week, I decided to spend them with Jen.
This is where I believe I almost jumped the gun on something that I think I might not be ready for. This time spent with her was so amazing, and got rid of so much stress, that it was like one of those movies where the couple remembers how they came together. Anyways, one night, I suddenly wanted to ask her to marry me. (
). But as soon as I was ready to actually ask, my brain froze and I suddenly thought, "What the hell am I doing?" Unforunately, I think she had an idea, too, but she didn't say a word.
We spent the last day together for a couple hours, and then I left.
But now to where I need some advice. I think I may have made a big mistake even thinking of doing so. And worse yet, I think she got what I was preparing to do because the last day wasn't as 'romantic' as before. So to you married men, did I possibly just ruin any chance of our relationship going further?
I'm very confused, and I have no idea why the 'excitement' of our time spent together almost caused a disaster. I didn't even have a ring. ( 👎 ) And worse yet, I haven't talked to my psychiatrist here about this.
I've actually become quite upset and saddened over just talking about this, so any advice is greatly appreciated.
But to the background.
The reason I requested the ban was because I was going to see a psychiatrist in Europe. Now, you're probably thinking what the psychiatrist thought when I told him. Well, recently, I'd been having a lot of thoughts about life and why I was thinking such things (in simple terms, I felt old.
Well, after I told him why I came, he declared it'd be best I suddenly not come to him for the rest of the week because he felt unless I was prepared to stay longer than a week, I go home and consult a psychiatrist in the US.
This pretty much just destroyed the whole reason I came. But since I had 3-4 days left of the week, I decided to spend them with Jen.
This is where I believe I almost jumped the gun on something that I think I might not be ready for. This time spent with her was so amazing, and got rid of so much stress, that it was like one of those movies where the couple remembers how they came together. Anyways, one night, I suddenly wanted to ask her to marry me. (
We spent the last day together for a couple hours, and then I left.
But now to where I need some advice. I think I may have made a big mistake even thinking of doing so. And worse yet, I think she got what I was preparing to do because the last day wasn't as 'romantic' as before. So to you married men, did I possibly just ruin any chance of our relationship going further?
I'm very confused, and I have no idea why the 'excitement' of our time spent together almost caused a disaster. I didn't even have a ring. ( 👎 ) And worse yet, I haven't talked to my psychiatrist here about this.
I've actually become quite upset and saddened over just talking about this, so any advice is greatly appreciated.