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- GTP_Nismo
Man....loving someone you can't bear to even look at is tough. I seriously did not think of her this whole weekend, I didn't see her once today (or at least I avoided her) but Kirsten...why can't I just let my grip go? I seriously thought that if I saw her, and she just sat saying "hey"....
...all I could do was walk away....I can't even talk to her. I care for her so much. I'd do anything (realistic) for her. I seriously cannot take it anymore, either she stays away or I go away, but wither way I can't forget. No to mention the cance for me is probably 1/1000 to get with her. Come on, an uptight guy having a chance with a girl with a boyfriend and maybe 2 other better guys chasing her? But I almost love her...I know I'm too young to know the whole feeling, but I have to burden all these feelings day by day. This is the only place I can even talk about this.
Ca va tres mal.
WHat you're feeling isn't love. You've told yourself it's love cause that's what you've been taught to think love is. You just have the hots for her cause you can't have her or cause of the physical attraction. If you sat down and thought about it, you'd know I'm right. You're a smart kid.