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I don't think I've ever had a proper friend. All the friends I've had in the past have been friends out of necessity, colleagues sort of. None of them are friends out of pure mutual interests. But what are friends anyway, they're just people you meet in life. It's okay, I am a loner after all.
 
Ive been bad addicted to painkillers and alcohol for a while now... its brought some bad things into my life and made my life hell.. ive been 5mo sober from booz.. been trying to clean my act up.. i havent told anyone this for years.. please dont look down on me.. im tryin to change my ways
 
kennylmao
I don't think I've ever had a proper friend. All the friends I've had in the past have been friends out of necessity, colleagues sort of. None of them are friends out of pure mutual interests. But what are friends anyway, they're just people you meet in life. It's okay, I am a loner after all.
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Same here. Sometimes being alone feels more comfortable.

I actually feel weird about myself. Everytime i see people, i always wonder how it feels like to be normal. I don't feel normal and really hate it, sometimes people would see that i'm weird and different, and i don't like it but i don't know what to do.
 
GT40 MKII
Ive been bad addicted to painkillers and alcohol for a while now... its brought some bad things into my life and made my life hell.. ive been 5mo sober from booz.. been trying to clean my act up.. i havent told anyone this for years.. please dont look down on me.. im tryin to change my ways
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Keep up the good work man.
 
kennylmao
I don't think I've ever had a proper friend. All the friends I've had in the past have been friends out of necessity, colleagues sort of. None of them are friends out of pure mutual interests. But what are friends anyway, they're just people you meet in life. It's okay, I am a loner after all.
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Same. Nothing but acquaintances and never friends. All because I have no ability to trust anyone, and any social interactions I attempt are pathetic.
 
GT40 MKII
Ive been bad addicted to painkillers and alcohol for a while now... its brought some bad things into my life and made my life hell.. ive been 5mo sober from booz.. been trying to clean my act up.. i havent told anyone this for years.. please dont look down on me.. im tryin to change my ways
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I know the feeling.

I've only just recently (the last year or so) managed to get a hold on my drinking after years of abusing alcohol. It's nothing to feel you need to be looked down on for, especially here, in fact, I had a great deal of support from members here helping me to work out a solution to my drinking habit.

You know you have a problem so you're already ahead of many addicts in that respect. If you want to get straight and are seeking help then I have nothing but respect for that.

Good luck.
 
@GT40 MKII Just read your post and came to reply but saw that @W3HS has already done a better job than me. 👍

All I can say is don't worry about people looking down on you around here. There's plenty of stories like this from other members, one way or another. My ex-wife was an alcoholic for years and I witnessed the tragedy of that unfold until long after we were together. So no, no one is judging you here. :)
 
kennylmao
I don't think I've ever had a proper friend. All the friends I've had in the past have been friends out of necessity, colleagues sort of. None of them are friends out of pure mutual interests. But what are friends anyway, they're just people you meet in life. It's okay, I am a loner after all.
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I have this same trait. There are people I enjoy talking to and occasionally meet up with from time to time, and by most accounts, this would constitute a friendship to the majority. But to me, they are just 'colleagues' as you say; classmates that I continue to see outside of school every now and then, but not friends. 'Friends' imply to me an element of trust and (again, as you say) mutual understandings that appeal to both parties. Sure, some of them have the same interests as me and I can quite happily have a conversation about it, but I never find myself bonding with them or what have you. I just see it as having a like-minded discussion based on pure chance. And I've never been in a situation where I really need to put trust into someone, or have them confide in me for anything either.

I have occasionally thought that my view on this to be quite sort of cold in some aspects. In all honestly, if someone doesn't talk to me anymore, regardless of if they have a reason or not, I just don't actually care - I won't contact or speak to them. If they do suddenly start talking to me, again, I won't care - I will just resume talking to them as though nothing has really changed.
 
I'm not sure if anybody else share this feeling and it's a small thing, I know, but I'm genuinely afraid of meeting people from the internet. :indiff:
 
Dean
I'm not sure if anybody else share this feeling and it's a small thing, I know, but I'm genuinely afraid of meeting people from the internet. :indiff:
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I was. But then I realized that I've gotten to know a few of them really well, and as long as they're not totally different from how they present themselves online I had nothing to fear.

source: my boi from utah, zyla
 
I have a boring personality and find it almost impossible to make decent conversation with people (that lasts more than 2 minutes at least). I also make situations awkward incredibly quickly... 0-Awkward faster than a Veyron can do 0-60. And I've never had a girlfriend really, which sucks.

Jesus. Had to let that out.. :lol:
 
Dean
I'm not sure if anybody else share this feeling and it's a small thing, I know, but I'm genuinely afraid of meeting people from the internet. :indiff:
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It is weird but if you choose your people wisely then it is ok. I met Danny and Beeblebrox237 last week. Great people.
 
Obviously, nobody here has met me. There is a reason why... :sly:
 
GT40 MKII
Ive been bad addicted to painkillers and alcohol for a while now... its brought some bad things into my life and made my life hell.. ive been 5mo sober from booz.. been trying to clean my act up.. i havent told anyone this for years.. please dont look down on me.. im tryin to change my ways
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There's more people here on this site battling similar issues than you might realize.

Take care.
 
At the beginning of the year I realized I have made lots of bad decisions in life that's why I'm feeling stagnant and unaccomplished. Good thing is I'm already started to fix my it now that I admitted my mistakes to myself.
 
I like cutting classes, I know it's bad and I really can't stop doing it no matter how hard I try to stay in class. Worse of all I've been doing this since 6th grade :nervous:
 
Roger the Horse
I'm not wearing a shirt at the moment but I haven't shut the curtains.
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