I am still here. Thanks for the concern. I've been freaking out a bit recently. The news about my friends impending death has had quite an effect on me to be honest. A lot of things are going quite badly at the moment, I can't remember if I've posted here about it or not, but two groups of people independently expressed their concern over me appearing to be suicidal. I've not actually felt that I am, so I shrugged it off a bit, but last week it got a whole lot closer, mentally at least. I'm sure most people in this thread have questioned how much longer they can put up with feeling the way they do, and last week I felt that the answer for me, had become inevitable, hence, not long now, because I think I am at my breaking point. I've been advised from a non-professional that I'm suffering from burnout, which I'd not considered before, but actually makes a lot of sense. Add to that, last week I attempted to end my relationship with my girlfriend, which also had a big affect on me psychologically... though as of now, I've not actually followed that through... and am feeling better about it this week. My friend, who is starring death in the face, has told me to stop wasting my life... I don't really know how to deal with that. Like I say, thanks for the concern though, I don't like to appear melodramatic.