And here we are another Tuesday, same story as usual.
Q session
I had a great qualifying session, just behind
@xChris93_ @GT_Vette and
@filipino1234 . I managed basically my best lap equal right away and had a small mistake that didn't allow me to get a better time in second try. I was a bit better than i expected to qualify and i was confident in my race setup.
Race
The race started all smoothly, i could get behind fili easily pushing a bit, but he was quite adamant in defending his position and i got a couple of very scary moments at turn 1
My strategy was based on my setup. I could easily go for 10 or 11 laps at my wish and keep times for all of them below 1.18 and i was sure others wouldn't be able to. I was 100% right for all drivers pitted before me, and i had margin to save a pit stop compared to other drivers by race end. Things were looking good and if there wasn't rain i expected to battle the last 3-4 laps against agro and chris with them on fresher tires. Taking the best i could from my chances to say so.
I followed fili for lots of laps until i took advantage of some mistakes he made and when it started raining i changed my strategy again, pitted later (cold track made tires last even longer) with water at 20% and went on for another stint. I was quite solidly third, going nice and safe, just a couple hairy moments lapping
@cedbel (talking about it congratulations for your strong resolve to go on all race). When water started to get around 60 i went to box and refueled enough for race end and put in heavy rain tires.
I did lose position to fili for a few laps, but then he pitted again, and avoided fighting with
@Pedroeol for i was sure he still was on inters and he had to pit again while i was all set to go to end. I would probably have to fight with him by race end, but i thought i could manage a few laps rainy battle, or in any case end a decent 4th.
No mistakes all the race, not even in rain until i got DC.
Now this is quite enough i have to be honest, this makes it a 4 out of 4 races...
Race 1 i got DC while easily in 4th
ended 15th
Race 2 i was cruising in 3rd with enormous advantage before the sky opened
ended 6th
Race 3 (i'll regret this one all season i was sent off after a great race where i was controlling in 2nd)
ended 9th
Race 4 disconnected again while in a brilliant 4th
ended 11th
@Pubs16 told me that bad luck strikes 3 times, well this is the 4th and it's really enough.
I basically have ****** my championship standing and the teams standings too... I never thought i would race for the win (i know i never have a chance) so what i always do is racing my best for the championships (drivers and teams) to get as high as i can.
So now i have nothing left to race and even 2 drop scores means nothing at this point... I feel sorry for my teammate that did
great and would have made a great effort made to waste in the teams standings. Still pubs, TUP, you are doing great and i'm sure you'll get a podium in the next 3-4 races!
I won't hide that i'm depressed by now... I never trained so much before (even if it doesn't shows much lol); on average between 6 to 8 hours on track for each round + setup time, and to see each week all that work go to waste is getting really disheartening.
I feel like an idiot wasting so much time i could use in other things...
I checked the connection and it's not the issue, it seems it's just that PSN hates me... The room and host were already doomed the second we started the race as you all saw after the race when all crashed.
We tried other hosts, but we had even worse issues of people not seeing each other. I admit i thought of quitting for good. Already last race when my 2nd place was trashed i was close, not this week is almost the final blow.
I'm sticking in but i honestly do not have fun with all that happened so far... We started planning this serie with
@Stephen Vann and
@SkengD already in October if i'm not mistaken and made a lot of boring, obscure work. To not be able to enjoy it really makes me feel down. I had very different plans for my races
I'll try again, stick to it, i hope the next 2-3 races get better, else if this "trend" goes on i'll have to quit and look for shorter races (so maybe i do not have to run 90 mins scared of dropping) and more "casual" racing (that won't take 8 or more hours of preparation each week).
Still i have nothing left to lose (or win

) so i'll try to follow
@cedbel lead and to keep on as long as i can stand it.
I know that these words aren't supposed to be heard from an organizer, but when something starts to became a grief instead of a joy something is wrong. I guess it's just bad luck and about to go, but still i want to know what is the Demon AGRO offered his soul to get his speed and protection from PSN disconnections
karsten