Started at 8:30 PM, finished at 1:30 AM, wrote the conclusion the next day. I actually posted it just now in the 2015 NASCAR Thread since I was reminded of it if anyone's interested in reading it
At least you're able to stay on task about it. I've been getting worse about getting a paper done because of one particular class.
Since 2nd semester began, my life slowly began to get miserable and very much into a routine.
Trigonometry isn't terrible since I can get most of the stuff being taught okay. The only issues is that it's first thing in the morning and that it has chemistry afterwards.
Chemistry to me is just a matter of "jumping through the hoops" now because the teacher has said that my major in college will not involve any chemistry classes whatsoever unless I take psychiatry. Now that I know that, what good is it for me to learn how to figure out how to do equations for atoms if I'm going into the art and creative field? Speaking of the teacher, she teaches on a college level and she has a habit of picking favorites. She is also known for tweaking grades and hardly put in the grades in the computer. When I mean put grades in the computer, I mean that all of us in her second period only have three grades listed to be viewed despite going through two papers, three tests, a notebook check, and numerous homework that she hardly checks.
And then her teaching style isn't very compatible with how I learn. I eventually get it some time afterwards, but I still end up lost as the days go on. I notice that every time I leave her class, I end up having depressive thoughts that gets visualized in my third period, Spanish II.
Spanish II is a class that barely pay any attention to. I'm just getting by in the class; I don't get called on by the teacher as often, so it's like I'm sort of invisible. Good enough for me even though I'm just doing bookwork for very little good reason. Some of the classmates do get on my nerves at times. I let it slip that I'm gay, and they're not homophobic; they're just annoying when they want to be funny when they do remember that fact. I usually block it out and either socialize/get help with a friend or go silent. During those silent times is when I start to have those depressive moments... until I have lunch.
This past Tuesday was when I finally caved in and went to the guidance counselor to talk about some of the issues that were going on in the middle of this. I was suppose to visit her again today, but she wasn't available; I'm gonna try again tomorrow so I can pick up the conversation.
If and when I do eat lunch, I don't get the same moments as before, which makes me believe that I could be experiencing low blood sugar or something. Reason being is that when I tend to get very hungry, I tend to get a bit cranky and... how can I put this? Suicidal. Yes, it gets that bad. My friend's mother pointed that out to me when I told her that, but because my family doesn't do normal family checks, I don't know anything for sure.
Anyways, so fourth period rolls around (US Government for now, Economics in two weeks), and it's the only decent class period I sort of look forward to. However, I don't do any homework for it at home. I typically do it in the class along with the quizzes that follows each section everyday. I fairly like the teacher and his jokes, but I'm literally the only junior in the class with primarily sophomores and one senior. I sort of feel left out knowing that most of my other classmates are in a different Gov & Econ class.
And then the bell rings letting us know that school ended, which I drive my friend home in the afternoon. I have prom committee meeting every Wednesday of March and one or two left in April before the prom event arrives. Beta club is on and off at times.
And eh... if you want to talk more about it, PM me. That's a summary of my high school life as of now.
