saw him last week and was told I'd keep the pins for another month but one rod is now about an inch out of my skin because it got caught on my sleeve while undressing. PAINFUL.
Just reading about that made me feel sick to my stomach.
Therapy is getting hard, I'm being asked to pick up bolts and cotton balls and stuff. I feel like a child. I can't even to that. I've always been an athlete and have always been able to pick up on something new with incredible ease. Now, it's totally flipped. I feel defeated. I guess I've just got to keep it up.
Definitely keep it up, but expect the frustrations to pop up, sometimes when you least expect it. Every now and then you will be doing an everyday activity and something normal will set it off. You just have to learn to cope with these moments, which is why I suggested meeting with a therapist. You'll occasionally feel like you've been screwed over by the world and a little anger management can pay off.
13 years later and it still hits me occasionally. The latest was when I bought some stuff for my car and they threw in valve stem caps for free. My wife and I were putting them on and I saw her switch hands with ease and use her left hand (she's right-handed) to put the cap on. I had about ten seconds of jealous anger pop up. I almost said, "Must be nice," but I held my tongue and took a few deep breaths. My wife can read these moments and she glanced up and said, "Let's take it for a drive," without hestitation. I don't even know if she is aware of what set me off, but she recognized it and knew how to diffuse it.
Once you get back to realtive normality you will probably find you have moments of anger, depression, etc and it is best if a few close friends and family are aware so they can diffuse it. The therapy can be frustrating but when I am just trying to do "normal" activities and I have to struggle is when I get the most angry.
Another idea for your therapy is to set small goals for yourself. I wanted to shuffle a deck of cards after a year. What I would have done without Magic: The Gathering (nerd alert!) I don't know. With your small goals you are able to actually measure your achievement as you go along and feel better about your therapy. First, it was making my fingers move at all, then it was pointing, then a teacher asked if I could flip her off yet (some teachers are cool) and so I worked on that, then it became shuffling cards.
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