I apologize in advance for the forthcoming post. Although, if you take the time to read it, I think you will benefit if you share a similar situation, and you'll also learn a bit more about me.
I must've been severely, yet unknowingly, socially deprived this past summer.
School is, for the most part, a
GODSEND.
I actually feel somewhat good. I think being a senior reaps its rewards. I mean, what the hell... The only things I need now are a license and an out-of-school friends network. My friend Jillian turned into a total goddess over summer break. Where the hell was I, and why is that so? Can the presence of others and your awe in being with them or certain people really be that magnified by a few months' worth of isolation? It's absolutely ridiculous. The weird thing is that there is no uneasiness regarding school (socially or academically). I feel comfortable there. I've come to realize that I make a huge difference in my society. I've always thought people were ****ed up. What I now know, however, is that I can change that. My element is to be amidst everything, and I must try as hard as I can to fill the void which I foolishly created behind me as I traversed my earlier school years. This first day of school almost feels like a cleansing. I'm making it my mission to step up and lead (although not necessarily directly) those around me, and to let people know I am one of the most valuable players on our team that journies life. I'm sick and tired of being the observer. Though I always was and still am true to myself, my stoic, collected behavior (paired with the fact that I live next to nobody) has restricted me from creating a strong network of support amongst friends and classmates. It's come back to bite me in the ass on occasion in the past. "Why should I go?" "What's there to look forward to?" "Am I even acknowledged?" There was obviously a problem. I mean, why should I even be questioning things? Was it that bad? Yes, I think it was, and, after analyzing my past, I think I know why. The answer is that I wasn't there.
So, now, as I suffer through the remainder of my high school education, I only have one message for anyone feeling in the dumps about school or whatever kind of stupid teenage social dilemma you may be up against: Be there. Take charge of society as I will. Arrive every day with the pimp's hand cocked and ready to slap around the b-word some call life, and discipline yourself to be the best in town morally, academically, and personally. Your woes and worries will go down the drain as your are consumed with comfortability in your new controlled environment. Just remember that your are your own key, and you're universally crafted to open any door... all you have to do is do it. 👍
I hope everyone has a fantastic school year. I wish everyone the best of luck and hopefully you'll think of me likewise. Thanks, and cheers to all.
Don't care about how I look.
