250 GTO -
Thank you for such a polite response. This shows you have self-control, and I'm already confident that life will only get better for you.
I stuck my neck out there for a moment to give you a pat on the back and a chuck-up of the chin - knowing fully well that you had a perfect right to lose it and bite my head off.
But that's what friends are for - we sometimes have to stick our necks out and risk being bitten because we
must be honest with you. Real friends are.
It's not easy to lose a life-partner. Or best friend. Or soul mate. Or whatever you, on looking back, found her to be in your time together. It's harder when people just 'pooh, pooh' it away as if it was just a bump on the highway. It wasn't. It isn't - it's a life-changing scenario.
But here's
also what I got from your response - that you think the cup is half-full. No, my friend - it isn't.
It's half-empty. That is the
happiest part of it right now.
Think of your previous-full glass as containing
very muddy water. You've now emptied half of it. Maybe you should empty as much as you can. This only leads to MORE space being left in that glass to be filled with the sparkling fresh water that you are now going to fill it with. Fresh water that will dilute that muddy taste and give you fresh life.
If there was no emptying - there
wouldn't be space to fill all that beautiful new water.
From what I gather - you were about to start a fresh life - all appointments readied - with her.
Well. She's not part of that equation, obviously. Someone else is. You're ready - empty portion of your life waiting to be filled an all. 👍

Good Luck and may the Force always be with you.
Harry.