Ahhh... this is going to be a long post, and the last one I'm going to do about her... I think I owe you an explanation because all of you have been very kind with me...
Let's go back in time 3 weeks... when everything went down the drain...
After her insulting Viber messages... I exploded...

I swore I wouldn't forgive her... Nobody had insulted me in such a horrible way... it was a low hit... a series of... she showed to me her worst face and spitted right in my manhood and my pride...
But I did forgive her...
She did say sorry... and I believed her... after just 3 days... 3 DAYS... All the hate, all the fury... I decided to lock it down and give it another go. God... I forgave her soo easily...
I was serious at first... all those s:censored: words were still floating in my head... I didn't want to say her the things I used to say, like "darling" or "I love you" or "Kisses"... but after a week... I thought, I really thought things were back to normal... talking was ok, texting was ok... everything was fine again... I trusted her again...
Then... last week... I had the chance to get close to her office on Tuesday but I couldn't see her... Ok, no problem... she said...
I asked her out late in the week... by Thursday... she said yes... and we went out for meal on Saturday...
I was still a little bit angry... but everything faded away when I saw her...
We talked, we laughed... we had fun, had a great meal... everything was fine... talked about our plans... the future... she is saving for a car, so am I, talked about the possibility of going out an entire weekend... everything was fine...
But there was... something wrong...
Suddenly, she started talking about her ex and how great he was

, talked about how much he loved a friend of her that lives in Guadalajara, how much fun she had the night she texted me, how much money she was making (she knows perfectly my pay is way, waaay lower)... I mean... she really thinks I'm that stupid??? I remember that night like it was yesterday, and she joked about it like it was nothing...
She didn't kiss me, or hug me, everytime I tried to take her hand or make physical contact she avoided me... And then despite she didn't have anything to do after we ate... she asked me to take her home... And that was it...
Usually, I don't know why... things cool down after we see each other. But this time things got cooler than ever...
No text, no calls, no e-mails... nothing... I thought she had family problems again... or maybe she go sick again... She became a tomb... and whenever I talked to her... I felt this... you know, this feeling you get when someone's not ok... despite the fact we are just texting... I felt it...
Asked her yesterday if she was angry with me... and she told me "we are simply too different for things to work fine... we want different things... blah blah blah"
I mean, come on! She once told me we had too many things in common to be a couple... and now this????
And well, that's about it... she is giving up again... We've been so many times in this situation it has finally become boring... for me at least: Up, down, up, down, up down, I love you, I don't, I trust you, now I don't, you are so good, you are boring, you are pathetic, you are perfect, thank you for tolerating me and my strange moods, show me some more fire, you don't have passion, I love the way you dedicate to your work and the time you've spent with me, you are a wonderful man, my ex was like the "most fascinating man in the world"...
I'm bored to death with this...
Remember that time when I wanted to tell her "You win. I give up"???... I just did.
It's over...
You may think I also gave up easily, but look, I've tolerated a lot of crap from her... these last comments doesn't sound too serious... but it's the same thing all over again, dejavú if you like... and I'm going to be 25 this year, I can't wait anymore...
So, Goodbye A... I believe...
I need to sleep... it's been a hard night...
Take care boys...