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What Grinds my Gears?
The Arguments I keep having with the wife. 3 days in a row now, over things so stupid i'm to embarrassed to disclose details.
I think it's mostly my fault, she is Hormonal and that is a factor, but I am so quick to get angry and not let anything slide, at all.
I have had her in tears 3 nights in a row and feel like a real jack ass, granted it takes two to tango, but she has an excuse and is carrying my child so I really should lighten up and try to be calm.
I did go to the doctors once about all this and he said I had "severe anxiety issues" and put me on Beta Blockers, then Anti-depressants. I fear i'm relapsing into this state of mind again, it just sheer rage all the time caused by basically nothing...it makes you feel like a monster that hurts and pushes away anything close to you, currently i'm on the verge of tears and can't stop clentching my jaw and fists....so much rage...so little reason.
I hate this so much, but I don't want the meds again.
Now sitting in the living room with an upset wife in total silence and tension in the air.
I need to smash something
I have the rage for no reason problem too. And the smashing of objects (i.e. cheap made fans) helps a bit. I just go outside and shoot the hockey ball at the hockey net with my hockey stick. Gets rid of some rage.