Azn- No offense, but I think there are some far deeper problems at hand here. The fact that you wished to join a gang, the fact that you smoke (at such an early age!) the fact that you talk "smack" on a public forum... they're all red flags pointing to danger. You seem to be living a "hard-core city life"... would you even recognize a wild animals if you saw one? You need some serious evaluations on your life. When you get the spare time, try to think about yourself, where you're headed to, what direction you're taking, and your general attitude towards life itself. Are you simply living to be "alive," or are you living to try and be successful? I'm assuming you're a couple years older than me- by this time, most mature teens have thought seriously about their lives... have
you? Have you reached that stage where you can honestly critique yourself, look at yourself and ask "What's wrong with me, what changes must I make?" Do you realize that your basic attitude towards life will cause people to shun you; the higher business world will probably have nothing to do with you, unless you make some serious changes here and now. Try to take school seriously- listen to the teachers, take notes, and actually try to
APPLY what you learn. For example, (basic example), if you learn that the area of a triangle is 1bh/2, don't just memorize that. Think about it- WHY is it one-half of the base times the height? If you apply your knowledge, you would come to the conclusion that it's basically half of the area of a square, which is what you get when you put an equivelent triangle on top. Now please note that this was a small example... the stuff that I'm trying to get to you is that you need to apply things in your whole life. If someone seems snotty, ask yourself "why?" After you've figured out why, apply that new knowledge- remember to not do the actions that make people seem snotty. This goes for all aspects of life, and trust me, it will change you drastically, and usually for the better. So please, just sit down for a couple hours, and think about your life, because it is going in the absolute wrong direction right now. No one can change you but
you. If you need further help, PLEASE don't hesitate to talk to your counselor; they are there for a reason.
Good luck!
It's the only way to do it. My dad cut down many times but he always went back up. The only way he finally quit was to just do it and never have another one.
