Confession Booth

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A few confessions:
I've got a bad face-picking habit... possibly a reason for no girlfriend? :lol:
And all the Premo I've ever gotten has been given to me :p
 
Here we go again. Can't sleep. :ouch:

This time it's my own fault. My face is tired even my eyes are tired but I just can't seem to fall a sleep.
So I decided to spend some time on GTP. Maybe reading will help lower my stress.
 
I'm leaving GTP! Don't know for how long. Don't write PM's or visitor messages. I won't read/answer them.

I seem to piss off moderators and regular members too often, which isn't my intention at all.

People don't even answer my visitor messages and PM's. :grumpy: I don't believe that they just forgot to answer.
I get misinterpreted, and I misinterpreted other's posts.
I post things that are clearly not allowed (posts being removed >> not referring to an altercation I had with a certain super moderator a few days ago).
I can take a hint.

Murphy's law maybe? >> "If anything can go even worse, it will go even worse". "Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong".

I'm definitely NOT going to apologize.

Enough said.
 
Man, I know you're probably not gonna read this, but some people will miss you - hate to see a GTP member leave :(
 
kikie
I'm leaving GTP! Don't know for how long. Don't write PM's or visitor messages. I won't read/answer them.

I seem to piss off moderators and regular members too often, which isn't my intention at all.

People don't even answer my visitor messages and PM's. :grumpy: I don't believe that they just forgot to answer.
I get misinterpreted, and I misinterpreted other's posts.
I post things that are clearly not allowed (posts being removed >> not referring to an altercation I had with a certain super moderator a few days ago).
I can take a hint.

Murphy's law maybe? >> "If anything can go even worse, it will go even worse". "Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong".

I'm definitely NOT going to apologize.

Enough said.
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Look, you are going through a tough time. Sure, some things you post on GTP aren't the greatest apparently (I dont recall anything bad), you dont have any infractions as far as I have heard. Infact, I have received a warning in one of your threads which is probably more than you have. I actually have 3 warnings and yes I feel that one of the moderators hates me but its not biggy, i'll just hate him back :sly:.

Every time you get a warning you just have to re read the AUP and move on. I honestly hope you dont leave because that would be a waste of 6 years in my opinion and probably a loss to this community.
 
kikie
I'm leaving GTP! Don't know for how long. Don't write PM's or visitor messages. I won't read/answer them.

I seem to piss off moderators and regular members too often, which isn't my intention at all.

People don't even answer my visitor messages and PM's. :grumpy: I don't believe that they just forgot to answer.
I get misinterpreted, and I misinterpreted other's posts.
I post things that are clearly not allowed (posts being removed >> not referring to an altercation I had with a certain super moderator a few days ago).
I can take a hint.

Murphy's law maybe? >> "If anything can go even worse, it will go even worse". "Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong".

I'm definitely NOT going to apologize.

Enough said.
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Yea, I kind of feel the same, I posted a tread about a way to get free cars in GTPSP, it pretty much got deleted without anybody reading it, and I swear it was actually useful, and it had ideas no one thought of before, and it was no scam, now I just feel stoopid...... :(
 
kikie
I'm leaving GTP! ...
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Chris, I'm really sorry you've decided to do this but hopefully you'll read the responses in this thread and change your mind. I think you're a sound guy and you seemed pretty genuine in our PM convo the other day which is a great quality and sorely missing in many people on the internet. I know you've had it tough over the years but I honestly think it's better to stay part of a community like GTP even when it does seem like it's not going well. Just ignore the asshats and don't take it personally when people don't respond, unfortunately not everyone is as considerate as you would like them to be so it's best not to let that get to you or it'll do your head in.

Hope you're ok

Neal
 
kikie
I'm leaving GTP! Don't know for how long. Don't write PM's or visitor messages. I won't read/answer them.

I seem to piss off moderators and regular members too often, which isn't my intention at all.

People don't even answer my visitor messages and PM's. :grumpy: I don't believe that they just forgot to answer.
I get misinterpreted, and I misinterpreted other's posts.
I post things that are clearly not allowed (posts being removed >> not referring to an altercation I had with a certain super moderator a few days ago).
I can take a hint.

Murphy's law maybe? >> "If anything can go even worse, it will go even worse". "Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong".

I'm definitely NOT going to apologize.

Enough said.
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A breather is always good. Just ignore everyone that will cause drama or at least come up with a solution. Get better buddy.
 
I have a 15 year old can of SPAM on my desk right now.

I desperately want to eat it, even though it's as old as me.
 
if its tinned you can eat it whatever age really. Ray Mears ate a 50 year old tin of baked beans on his show once.
 
Spam seems really disgusting. The name is blergh, I have never seen it and I really don't think I would eat it. Is it REALLY fattening?
 
Legendary
Spam seems really disgusting. The name is blergh, I have never seen it and I really don't think I would eat it. Is it REALLY fattening?
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I don't know if it's fattening, but imagine a slab of ham. Spiced ham and other meat by-products, add a little slimy juice and you've got SPAM. It is good though. Which is strange, giving the discription I gave you.

StigNumbers
March 1995. That's when the can was made
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I'm about to thro....oh man not on the computer screen.
 
GT_Prologue5
I don't know if it's fattening, but imagine a slab of ham. Spiced ham and other meat by-products, add a little slimy juice and you've got SPAM. It is good though. Which is strange, giving the discription I gave you.



I'm about to thro....oh man not on the computer screen.
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YUCK, sounds like some disgusting thing that only Americans would eat. Almost as bad as the burgers with ten patties, but worse.
 
Legendary
YUCK, sounds like some disgusting thing that only Americans would eat. Almost as bad as the burgers with ten patties, but worse.
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When i was there i found some really good eateries. It's all about choice and they cater for everyone's choices over there. Fat people were always going to end up fat - no matter where they live. It's not fair to pigeon hole the Yanks like that. I see far worse wandering around Ipswich tbh.


Anyone here been to the NASCAR restaurant in Las Vegas?
 
I've finally gotten way too close to the edge for my friends to handle, but I thank god they've been there. My friend threatened me that if I didn't go seek help in a week she'd tell my parents. If she told my parents I would honestly try to kill myself as soon as possible, so I told her to give me a chance to prove myself. She's been through the same thing but still gets down every now and then so I promised her if she wouldn't hurt herself I wouldn't either. I can't tell you how hard of a promise that has been to keep, but I've been decently strong the past week or so.

For quite some time, as I can't remember when I started, I've been starving myself every day. If I don't completely have no appetite I force myself not to eat because of how much I hate myself. The only thing keeping me eating is the munchies I get at the end of every night after 'smoking'. I also haven't been taking my medication despite desperately needing it. Lately I've been so completely out of it I don't feel attached to reality whatsoever. I drive my Barracuda around like Steve McQueen and every now and then I aim straight for a tree or concrete barrier. Luckily I'm open about how I feel when I'm 'up' so I've been able to warn my friends not to let me near my Volvo. It's currently at a friend's house and I honestly want nothing more than to drive it 70mph down his dirt road straight into a tree. The only thing keeping me from smashing into something in my Barracuda is the slight chance of survival and having nothing.

I'm honestly surprised I've made it this far and am able to type this message. I've been dealing with so much crap going on in my head I just can't handle it anymore. Being the confession booth and the fact that I know ya'll aren't very judgmental, I've more recently come to terms with the fact that I'm bi (very ironic considering how I used to be). That in itself is a huge factor in how I'm feeling. 18 years of christian brainwashing doesn't work well with a personal discovery like that.

I'm sorry for posting this, I know ya'll don't need to know about my issues, but it really feels good to just let it out and reevaluate sometimes, even if it's just to a forum.
 

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