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Slashfan
The absolute thing I regret the most and confess here is when several years ago my dad and I argued over something and then later he said sorry and tried to give me a hug. I pushed him away and he got angry again. To this day I still feel absolutely terrible for that. I know it's just a small incident but it really bugs me that I cannot do anything about it. I've never said this to anyone.
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Small things that make one feel regret that they never forget about isn't all the uncommon, I've had it so many times over the last few years, always for a little action, or something I said that I could tell they took the wrong way. I know your situation entirely. I once said something really dumb and disrespectful at my grandmother's funeral about 5 years ago (2007), I still remember exactly what I said, the reaction everyone had, and it's pretty much haunted me ever since. If you don't go and talk to your father about it you will never be released from it. So really, just go and tell him that you do feel bad for it. You both will probably be better off. :)
 
Like I said though. It won't make me feel better. I'll still regret it. I doubt he even remembers anyway.
 
Slashfan; I admire you for trying.

I tell everybody in reality that I am over my ex-girlfriend/fiance, I'm 15 but we were together for six years and it still hurts just as badly, even though it was quite a few weeks ago. Natural? Not what I'm being led to believe by my 'friends' so now I'm saying I've managed to move on, but I haven't. And I hate lying so it's only adding to the pain.

Not sure what to do :confused:
 
Legendary
I suppose this forum is a big family, there are really no idiots out on these parts of the forum. When you sign up to a forum you join expecting a plethora of idiots and there is not much you can do about it. This forum is different, the rules are stricter and the people I am speaking are generally only found in the GT5 sections. If you stay clear of that area unless it is really needed you are bound to find the same person twice. That person will be talking to another person with such respect and friendliness.

We aren't strangers to each other on GTPlanet, almost everyone is friends with another and we are willing to share knowledge and even a joke with other people here. That's what makes this such an enjoyable place and that what makes this place feel like a big family.

EDIT: And concluding my last two posts with something I forgot to point out. Andrew, you do have people to talk to, at no stage in your life will you ever have nobody to talk to. Heck, even if you dont want to talk to anyone else, we are, as mentioned in this post, like one big family. Feel free to keep talking here, it helps and we are always willing to offer our assistance and thoughts.
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This is so true. Come to think of it though, I wonder what happened to him? I've noticed I hardly see him around - and hope he's okay. Maybe he just moved on. I still remember that night (or rather 3.00 AM in the morning as usual for me) and how worried we all were that he was going to take his life. :crazy:
 
Warning, large amount of venting ahead due to girl acting like a child in a relationship.

Well guys it was great while it lasted, but it appears all great things must come to an end. If you remember my post here, just over two years ago, of me freaking out about a relationship it appears said relationship is coming to an end. Come to think of it, it was considered over about two months ago when she put me through the most horrendous and awkward breakup imaginable, but she came back last week wanting to try again. I still love her, even though I know I shouldn't after what she has done to me, but she seemed so sincere about everything so I thought what the heck. Now she claims to love the fat loser she was briefly dating and met less than two months ago (that's definitely love right there /sarcasm), but also that she still might love me. She wants a few days alone to "think about what she's done" and "who she wants to be with".

I'm thinking that the girl I love (I know I shouldn't, but what can you do) has turned into nothing more than a source of pain, misery, and stress. I should have caught on sooner because of the company she kept and the self image she held.

I'm just pissed that all this played out merely days before I start my first semester of college; I really don't need any of this right now.

To end my rant I'll say the best analogy I've ever hard. Life is like a penis, straightforward, easygoing, you usually get what you want out of it, and then women make it hard.

Except (female dogs/expletive) don't act like children and take as long as possible to rip your heart out.

Also if anyone knows of a good way to physically vent anger I would appreciate the advice.
 
Punching Bag. Will give you the hard breathing you need to vent.

Jones, hang in there, mate. There's another on the way . . . law of averages being what it is.. . .

👍 :cheers:

Writing it out sometimes helps, too. ;)
 
I've recently pondered what suicide would be like...several times. But I'm not stupid enough to try it.
 
Slashfan
I've recently pondered what suicide would be like...several times. But I'm not stupid enough to try it.
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It's nice seeing I'm not the only one who thinks of this. Usually I contemplate a bit too much about the afterlife (not speaking more than that). Of course, I never attempted it but I did reach one point in my life where I seriously considered it. Fortunately that me is long gone.
 
Oh trust me I have considered it. I've had clsoe friends attempt it and I have lost others to it. I'm smart enough not to commit the act itself. I pretty much know what life would be like when your dead...non-existant. The state of which you were in before you were born. You weren't there. You missed it all. That's what death will be like. Just like before birth.
 
I'm going to assume that everybody at one time or another must have wondered what ending it all would be like; life is not easy street all the time. We all lose heart sometimes. It's not some special 'chic' way to feel; it doesn't set one apart from the crowd to go about slashing your wrists for attention.
No doubt there must be individuals who live in such constant pain that death would be a relief; it's hard to judge what that must feel like, unless one is actually wearing those shoes.
I like to think Life is a gift. Throwing it away is like throwing away a gift that is unopened; one never knows what is around the bend, what comes at the 1000th step, when the 999th is depressing enough to kill and be killed. We must push on, take that 1000th step, learn to unwrap the gift gently, patiently, till we see what's inside the box.
 
I got pretty low a month or two ago. I admit I thought about what it would be like, and I really couldn't stand the thought. I just couldn't even comprehend losing all that's good(And can be made good) in my life over some of these things that had been getting me down. And when I say "low", I mean like...not eating the way I should(or some days at all until the pain was too much and I just grabbed the nearest thing and ate it) and at one point I woke up on time to get to work and everything, looked at my clock for a few minutes, then just turned it off and went to sleep. I woke up an hour later to a call from my supervisor giving me some 🤬 about being late. So I got up slowly, threw on my uniform then went to work. As soon as I got there my OIC noticed I looked like I was really depressed, so he talked to me about some options. I got some help and decisions were made and now I'm on the up.


I'd never actually contemplated doing it. But I had wondered about the concept. And then as soon as I started taking stock of all the things that I could change for the better with in my life I started realizing that it didn't have to be so bad. I'd still never considered the idea beyond a brief blink in my mind, but the moment I did I kinda realized 🤬 had to change. So I started changing it. Since then I've had my downs but I've mostly been happier overall.



I've been doing a lot better recently. I've actually noticed my post thread outside of the pony thread is growing, too, to go with my mood being on the up again.

EDIT: I think that's, what, 4 posts that started a new page by me in the past two days? How does this keep happening...?
 
Slashfan
Well knowing him he'll be like why are you brining this up now.

I'll give it a shot.
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Not sure if you ever got around to speaking to your dad, if not have/did you consider just going up and hugging him and saying something like your sorry for being difficult and regardless what you done/said in the past that you love him?

As you've said it is clearly something that is playing on your mind so you should do something about it while you still can, as if for what ever reason you couldn't it would always stay with you.
 
Speaking of thinking of suicide. I have contemplated about the "concept" of suicide quite a few times - I admit it. But I would never ever ever attempt it, no matter how bad things got. I'm anything but a troubled individual and just the thought of something so extreme makes me think. So while I was wondering about it, does my thinking mean I have "thoughts of suicide"? Or am I just randomly pondering about things? I mean I'm a really optimistic person but doesn't everyone have stupid inner thoughts?
 
Yeah, everyone thinks about things they'd rather not.

Like moments when you accidentally picture someone naked who you'd really rather not think about naked, or something like that. Those moments when you start tapping yourself on the head thinking "stop it brain, stahp".
 
terminator363
Or am I just randomly pondering about things? I mean I'm a really optimistic person but doesn't everyone have stupid inner thoughts?
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I've done the same. It is a thing many people consider the concept of but not actually consider the act of. Thinking about it, in this case, doesn't make one suicidal, in the same way that considering the concept of homosexuality doesn't make one gay because if you didn't think about it, how would you know it was/ wasn't the choice for you?
 
That's...a much better example than mine.

I shouldn't post so much when I'm this tired.
 
Off to sleep, soldier! ;)

Just kidding. I spend late nights posting too, you should see the crap that comes out. :p
 
priesty_lfc
Not sure if you ever got around to speaking to your dad, if not have/did you consider just going up and hugging him and saying something like your sorry for being difficult and regardless what you done/said in the past that you love him?

As you've said it is clearly something that is playing on your mind so you should do something about it while you still can, as if for what ever reason you couldn't it would always stay with you.
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Several times. Felt good.
 
I would love for the chance to speak to my father again. He died when I was seven, so I'm not likely to have that chance again. I'm lucky, because I didn't have any regrets, but sometimes things happen, and if you're harboring feelings that you want to share, just don't forget that there might not be a time to share them again.
 
Yep, so pretty much the only course of action is either grin and bear it, or grow a pair and say it. Doing the second always makes you a stronger person.
 
I really want to grab my assistant's bottom and I'm having a hard time resisting. Am I a terrible person?
 

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