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Man that sucks you going through that, especially so young. Have you tried an app called Wizdo? I know people who have found it useful when they feeling down and lonelyOnly just learned about the phq score about a month ago. From one week to the next it had varied. Somewhere between 10 and... maybe 17 or 18? The last couple of days have been a pit for me. I got 21 tonight. Life just feels empty. Meaningless. Like in 24 years, I've achieved nothing I consider to be meaningful or worthwhile. I earn enough to get by, doing a job that I should love (I'm my own boss and I detail cars), but after 2 years, it's just routine. It's there, like everything else. I own 3 cars, one of which you could say is a semi-dream car. But all I've learned in 6 years of driving is that cars can't replace people.
My friends are gone. They moved away, they're at university or they're settled, they have their own lives, they have partners. And I'm still at home, living with my parents. Loneliness takes over. Every day thoughts go through my head. "Would anyone outside Mum and Dad even notice if you died tomorrow? Who would care? Nobody relies on you for anything. You are worth nothing to anyone."
Worth. That's a common theme for me - all I ever see is happy people, friends or couples, thankful for support of their friends or loved ones (on facebook for example). I've offered a shoulder to so many, tried to be a friend, and none have taken the offer, much less offered anything in return. Nobody needs me for anything. They say you have to love yourself before anyone else can, but that's the crux of it, isn't it? How can I feel like I'm of value, when nobody else does? Everyone wants to be wanted or needed.
"It's all in your head."
That's the worst part. Nobody feels what's in my head. I deal with it alone. It's like I get this churning, numb, almost poisonous feeling in my stomach, fingers and toes. Like death is clawing at my extremities and trying to overcome me.
Loneliness keeps taking over. Making new friends is hard. My job has me meeting new people several days a week, but work is still work, I'm doing a job. I'm not the kind of person who's going to make friends in a bar or a nightclub - I don't even drink because I always have to drive the next day. I'm on several dating sites, too. I daren't count how many women I've messaged to end up with no reply. It's soul-crushing. I'm not even worth a text message.
I don't know. It's like I'm just giving up on living. I go to bed at night, I sleep for 8 hours, wake up and feel like I haven't slept. I get up, force down breakfast because the numbness in my stomach is telling me to stop eating completely. I go to work, clean a car or two, come home, stuff my face with junkfood (the churning goes briefly to be replaced by comfort eating), go to the next job, come home, eat a nice home-cooked meal that my mother has prepared, and then I sit there. In my room. And wait to go to bed again. I have an easy life. No money trouble, my parents' house is nice, spotlessly clean, and in the countryside. I don't even have anything to be unhappy about.
Christ, that was a long text-wedge...
I've read up on MS and from what I saw, there are ways to treat it. Even though there is no cure, it's important to have an early diagnosis. It can be managed from what articles I found.So around a month ago I was informed I officially have Multiple Sclerosis, and my doctor has suggested me to look into the scary "treatment" options I have. Even though I was aware that I might have MS in the future after last year's incident, I'm finding it extremely tough to stomach my final diagnosis. Part of me wants to just move on and calm down, but it's harder than I thought. The feeling of "my life is over before it began" is eating up my mind. Most people my age are doing normal things like getting married, travelling, having kids, continuing their education etc, and I can't help but feel left out all of a sudden, I can't relate.
Terrible bouts of insomnia and depression have kicked in and I'm not really sure how to cope.
Sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I feel the same way about being left out, mostly in the same boat, only difference is I don't have a legitimate medical condition to excuse my situation. If you want to chat about things, feel free.So around a month ago I was informed I officially have Multiple Sclerosis, and my doctor has suggested me to look into the scary "treatment" options I have. Even though I was aware that I might have MS in the future after last year's incident, I'm finding it extremely tough to stomach my final diagnosis. Part of me wants to just move on and calm down, but it's harder than I thought. The feeling of "my life is over before it began" is eating up my mind. Most people my age are doing normal things like getting married, travelling, having kids, continuing their education etc, and I can't help but feel left out all of a sudden, I can't relate.
Terrible bouts of insomnia and depression have kicked in and I'm not really sure how to cope.
Man that sucks you going through that, especially so young. Have you tried an app called Wizdo? I know people who have found it useful when they feeling down and lonely
Wow, MS?So around a month ago I was informed I officially have Multiple Sclerosis, and my doctor has suggested me to look into the scary "treatment" options I have. Even though I was aware that I might have MS in the future after last year's incident, I'm finding it extremely tough to stomach my final diagnosis. Part of me wants to just move on and calm down, but it's harder than I thought. The feeling of "my life is over before it began" is eating up my mind. Most people my age are doing normal things like getting married, travelling, having kids, continuing their education etc, and I can't help but feel left out all of a sudden, I can't relate.
Terrible bouts of insomnia and depression have kicked in and I'm not really sure how to cope.
That ain't fair.
So around a month ago I was informed I officially have Multiple Sclerosis, and my doctor has suggested me to look into the scary "treatment" options I have. Even though I was aware that I might have MS in the future after last year's incident, I'm finding it extremely tough to stomach my final diagnosis. Part of me wants to just move on and calm down, but it's harder than I thought. The feeling of "my life is over before it began" is eating up my mind. Most people my age are doing normal things like getting married, travelling, having kids, continuing their education etc, and I can't help but feel left out all of a sudden, I can't relate.
Terrible bouts of insomnia and depression have kicked in and I'm not really sure how to cope.
I'm sorry to hear about the diagnosis. Was the insomnia and depression there before you found out about the MS?So around a month ago I was informed I officially have Multiple Sclerosis, and my doctor has suggested me to look into the scary "treatment" options I have. Even though I was aware that I might have MS in the future after last year's incident, I'm finding it extremely tough to stomach my final diagnosis. Part of me wants to just move on and calm down, but it's harder than I thought. The feeling of "my life is over before it began" is eating up my mind. Most people my age are doing normal things like getting married, travelling, having kids, continuing their education etc, and I can't help but feel left out all of a sudden, I can't relate.
Terrible bouts of insomnia and depression have kicked in and I'm not really sure how to cope.
That ain’t fair at all. I’ve always found these circumstance hard to deal with; regular, apparently healthy people falling down on their health despite leading a relatively vice free life.
People like ourselves who seem intent on self destruction somehow manage to remain mostly in one piece.
It’s very unfair.
That ain’t fair at all. I’ve always found these circumstance hard to deal with; regular, apparently healthy people falling down on their health despite leading a relatively vice free life.
So around a month ago I was informed I officially have Multiple Sclerosis, and my doctor has suggested me to look into the scary "treatment" options I have. Even though I was aware that I might have MS in the future after last year's incident, I'm finding it extremely tough to stomach my final diagnosis. Part of me wants to just move on and calm down, but it's harder than I thought. The feeling of "my life is over before it began" is eating up my mind. Most people my age are doing normal things like getting married, travelling, having kids, continuing their education etc, and I can't help but feel left out all of a sudden, I can't relate.
Terrible bouts of insomnia and depression have kicked in and I'm not really sure how to cope.
What are you saying?Not long now.
Am I the only one who is worried?
Yes, but I can't stop worrying. It is who I am.No, the post was concerning. But in reality, we don’t know what it means and there’s little we can do except hope that it was drunken gibberish.
Yes, but I can't stop worrying. It is who I am.
Question: What role does purpose play in depression? In other words, if you feel you have a strong or clear purpose in life, does that strongly correlate, strongly not correlate, or have no discernible correlation with depression?
So, I've gotta decent job, gotta wife and kid, things could be worse I guess, so why do I feel so low? Is it cos I'm 50? I dunno, just feel so dissatisfied with life. Had a good friend of mine commit suicide back in April and I think about him everyday. We kind of lost touch and next thing I know, I'm attending his funeral. I mean, WTF?
Sad times...
Question: What role does purpose play in depression? In other words, if you feel you have a strong or clear purpose in life, does that strongly correlate, strongly not correlate, or have no discernible correlation with depression?