@GBalao888
I don't think this would help much, but try to do things that will take your mind off it, and allow you to move on healthily. It is not easy, it is difficult yes.
I have been in your shoes before.... In my life, not just once, but twice...
...if not three times in my life, in your shoe... At least twice I have thought I have found the one... and twice it sadly didn't work out... No situation and outcome is ideal.
It is just as painful each time and it doesn't get easier...
But you gotta move on.
I hope you have your happy ending too, whether with her or without her, NO ONE KNOWS at this point, but don't focus on that, move on for your own sake and sanity
All I can say is:
1) don't do what doesn't feel right, do the right thing, and always choose the high road... Don't settle for the pity stuff.
2) don't do what you think you will regret down the line
3) alwYs try to move on in a positive way, and decisions that can make you proud as a person,
4) steer clear of negative thoughts
5) do good for you first, accept what it is and why it hurts, but don't dwell on it
6) in order to move one, you have to take the first step away from the bad situation, every day. Once step...
Before you know it, you will be in a better place...
If she is part of the story in the future, great
If she won't be ... Your destiny will also be great because your are looking out for your own self first.
If she is smart enough to realize you are a great person, she will come back, but right now, it's her loss, not yours.
Your future is bright and you still have much to discover,
Go on your own new adventure, discover and make new friends... Who knows...
The best revenge is to make her regret her own choices
You go out there and succeed, be the better person and be the best you can be without her.
Enjoy your life first and things will fall right.
Remorse is not doing in your life what you should have been doing, and missing opportunities... Right now you have lots of other opportunities, she is one door that needs to stay close... Move on.
When she is ready, maybe she will open it up again, but until then, don't be wasting your time waiting and loosing time.
Go have safe fun elsewhere.
Happy for your parents