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From what I am always told. Just do you, along the way you will make friends and sometimes some of those relationships develop into deeper ones. Main important thing is not to be negative about your situation.
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I can not control anymore my negativity :/
 
I'll be honest. I haven't felt happiness or inner Peace since I returned to Kansas City in November. I'm becoming a total black hole.
 
When I was little, I was absolutely terrified to go to the washroom while I was in class. I was afraid to stand up, walk up to the teachers desk, while everybody else is in their seats, probably looking at me, and get permission to use the washroom. I was afraid to 'break the peace'. I guess, conclusion is, I was insecure as a child. Although I'm 20 years old now, and I understand myself and stuff much better, there's still that fear deep inside whenever I feel like taking a piss during class.

tl;dr I'm afraid to go to the washroom during class. :lol:
 
I once said on GTP many, many years ago that I'm not a fan of anything. I was lying but I have an excuse. I didn't know I was lying.

I'm in fact a huge fan of certain Porsche 911 models and the 356B.

Since I saw and sat in the new Cayman S, I'm also becoming a fan of the Cayman. But I'm not there yet. The Cayman still has to grow on me first.
 
I still have hope of a relationship that burned out and ended 3 years ago with someone that does not even live in the same state. I should really try looking local.
 
lintels123
I still have hope of a relationship that burned out and ended 3 years ago with someone that does not even live in the same state. I should really try looking local.
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I have to admit the same. Although in my case it's been less than a year, but certainly she's not interested anymore and I'm just grasping at meaningless clues and hints.
 
XS
I have to admit the same. Although in my case it's been less than a year, but certainly she's not interested anymore and I'm just grasping at meaningless clues and hints.
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And at the same time, i still have hopes that a long time friend will give more hints and that that will hopefully lead somewhere... after 8 years.
 
XS
Did you tell that long time friend how you feel?
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No, because i didn't want things to get weird after. I don't/didn't want to lose what we had. The fear of rejection partially but mainly the fear of losing a great friendship is what i don't want. Besides, she's doing bigger and better things with her life than i can even think of doing with mine. As long as she is happy & we keep in contact every so often, i don't mind being good friends. I'm sure i'll find another girl who will be taking a similar path as I later down the road anyways
 
I understand. I also suggest maybe poking around the topic. One, if she's a really good friend she won't mind and if she's not interested it'll be weird, yes, but you guys will easily move on (just don't spill your guts, suggest a date instead, nice and casual). Two, just because she's doing big things doesn't mean you should exclude yourself. If she's interested she'll happily share her life with you (and she won't care your life isn't like hers). But hey, I'm not exactly king of relationships so my advice is just my opinion. I do understand though, trust me.
 
XS
I understand. I also suggest maybe poking around the topic. One, if she's a really good friend she won't mind and if she's not interested it'll be weird, yes, but you guys will easily move on (just don't spill your guts, suggest a date instead, nice and casual). Two, just because she's doing big things doesn't mean you should exclude yourself. If she's interested she'll happily share her life with you (and she won't care your life isn't like hers). But hey, I'm not exactly king of relationships so my advice is just my opinion. I do understand though, trust me.
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Well... she and i had a short/casual "talk" i guess a few weeks ago. We didn't touch topics anything close to deep feelings. Although she did say we should go to a "car show" together (we ran into each other at a local show a couple years back). I figured she suggested it because it's one of my interest. I added "what about a hiking trip". She seemed to really like the idea and even went on to mention camping (which she's never done) as an idea also.

She went on to even talk of all the places we would go to if i were to visit her in Los Angeles if i went to visit her. She even jumped at the chance of meeting my family. I told her "if only you met my family, you would understand" after talking about how much "life has shaped us". She replied quickly with "I accept your challenge! I shall meet your family one day!"

Although... she is a very, very nice person. She seems to be super kind to everyone. I always fear that she may just be acting as her usual friendly self instead of throwing clues. Plus, she called me "such a great friend" the other week after all of this. Ah, why do i bother chasing my tail if i have no clue what to do when i catch it anyways...
 
That is a rough situation. I don't know, I guess I've always been a go for it kind of person. Sure there have been many times it backfired spectacularly but I've always been the type of person who has a hard time living with "what ifs".



Well, I've moved home to my parents, one to save money while I look for a job, and two to help take care of my mom while she recovers from surgery. My confession is I'm going crazy here. I'm very grateful for my parents and I love them a lot, but I'm finding it very difficult to be around them, which I feel terrible for. It's just they're so angry and negative all the time and I don't get it. This is new, they didn't used to be like this. I can't tell if they're getting senile or what is going on. But everyday is constant griping, yelling, cussing, and general anger at nearly everything. Yelling at the TV, yelling at traffic, yelling at the neighbors, throwing the tv remote, throwing stuff around the kitchen, and it's all wearing me real thin. I never know when there's going to be an outburst. I was dozing off the other night and all of a sudden there was slamming doors and yelling all over a news report. It's just so hard to live with, I just wish they could be happy and easy going.
 
After legitemately golding all three Top Gear Test Track special events races and the Jag event in the Super License in my first account, I resorted to using the glitch short cut for the Lotus special event and Jag event in later account games.
 
Tonight I was at Village Inn drinking coffee. I ordered food too but I couldn't eat any. I started feeling really anxious and sick to my stomach. This girl walked in and ordered food to go. I couldn't take my eyes off her. It was like the whole room went dark except for around her. I've never felt an aura like that in my life. She was sitting waiting for her food and I just kept watching her. Everything told me to walk over and ask her name..I didn't even know what to say I just wanted to know her name. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. And then she got her food and left. And I stayed there for probably an hour just staring at the empty space on the bench where she had been sitting. I'll never see her again. I'll never know what her name was. The anger came on like a sudden thunderstorm. I mean out of nowhere. The most anger. I completely annihilated the to-go box in my hands. It was all I could do to keep from smashing the coffee mug against the wall. I walked outside and just wanted to run out into the middle of the street and scream. I've never felt that way in my entire life. I'm just now calming down. I don't know why any of it matters. But it does. I know it does. It wasn't "ooh pretty girl I should go talk to her". It was something else. I know that makes no sense but I don't know how to put it
 
DegenThought
Tonight I was at Village Inn drinking coffee. I ordered food too but I couldn't eat any. I started feeling really anxious and sick to my stomach. This girl walked in and ordered food to go. I couldn't take my eyes off her. It was like the whole room went dark except for around her. I've never felt an aura like that in my life. She was sitting waiting for her food and I just kept watching her. Everything told me to walk over and ask her name..I didn't even know what to say I just wanted to know her name. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. And then she got her food and left. And I stayed there for probably an hour just staring at the empty space on the bench where she had been sitting. I'll never see her again. I'll never know what her name was. The anger came on like a sudden thunderstorm. I mean out of nowhere. The most anger. I completely annihilated the to-go box in my hands. It was all I could do to keep from smashing the coffee mug against the wall. I walked outside and just wanted to run out into the middle of the street and scream. I've never felt that way in my entire life. I'm just now calming down. I don't know why any of it matters. But it does. I know it does. It wasn't "ooh pretty girl I should go talk to her". It was something else. I know that makes no sense but I don't know how to put it
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Happened to me as well, I had 5-6 chances to confront this girl who I kept making eye contact with at this beach bar, but I didn't man up to go and talk with her; I was pissed for a day and a half after that, even had dreams that night of her. So far this has happened 3 times in my life (three different girls). Never figured out why I was pulled so close to these people. Just weird really.
 
I sorta mentioned this in the relationships thread, but I also do believe in that love at first sight thing. What you guys have to keep in mind is just because you feel that way doesn't mean they do. So how much of "destiny" can it really be if it's only felt by one person? Not trying to be a downer, I'm just saying be careful and try not to get wrapped up in those feelings, because if it goes wrong, it really sucks.
 
XS
I sorta mentioned this in the relationships thread, but I also do believe in that love at first sight thing. What you guys have to keep in mind is just because you feel that way doesn't mean they do. So how much of "destiny" can it really be if it's only felt by one person? Not trying to be a downer, I'm just saying be careful and try not to get wrapped up in those feelings, because if it goes wrong, it really sucks.
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Haha in my case I never felt it was destiny that we would have a future together or anything. Like I said I never expected to see her again either way, I just had a strong feeling to go say "hi" and the fact that I didn't upset me. But two days later I learned maybe a little restraint is good sometimes...

I have an actual confession to make now. A new neighbor moved in, and I can tell my roommate/good friend has a big crush on her. She actually looks quite a bit like the girl in the Village Inn, extremely beautiful with an equally strong aura. I've been trying to avoid her because my roommate is a good guy and I didn't want to get in the way of anything. I went on a trip for a few days, and she started messaging me some flirty stuff, meanwhile my roommate is texting me telling me how much fun he's having hanging out with her. Not good. I told myself I wouldn't let anything happen when i got back but inevitably...it did. Immediately. I haven't told him yet, I know I need to but I don' really know what to say. I feel like a prick because he's a really good dude. The other problem is that now I think I kind of like the girl too, and I feel bad for moving so fast with her. I don't want her to feel taken advantage of. Crappy situation all around.

Yes I know I'm an idiot. No idea why my life attracts all this ridiculous drama. I'm only 21 but I should be more of an adult than this...oh well. Only human.
 
I used to be extremely conscious about people not replying to my messages back when I was in school. I just realized I still am, though I've since learned to deal with such trivial things, haha :) What would life be without distractions? :D
 
The movie "Land Before Time" gave me issues for a long time. I still to this day get choked up pretty good watching it. The music during the credits doesn't exactly help either...
 
Slashfan
The movie "Land Before Time" gave me issues for a long time. I still to this day get choked up pretty good watching it. The music during the credits doesn't exactly help either...
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Hahaha!!! I'm glad I'm not the only one! Credits and everything!
 
XS
Hahaha!!! I'm glad I'm not the only one! Credits and everything!
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Hell yeah lol. I was afraid to admit that lol. Didn't wanna seem like a wuss XD I feel much better now that I'm not the only one haha. Hell I don't even have to watch it to get choked up lol. Just thinking about it does the trick lmao
 
Slashfan
Hell yeah lol. I was afraid to admit that lol. Didn't wanna seem like a wuss XD I feel much better now that I'm not the only one haha. Hell I don't even have to watch it to get choked up lol. Just thinking about it does the trick lmao
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That scene where he chases the cloud in the shape of his mother... gets me every time.
 
lintels123
That scene where he chases the cloud in the shape of his mother... gets me every time.
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The entire movie is incredibly dark for a kids film...even I knew it as a kid. And that's on top of the deleted scenes which were apparently so bad it could give kids seriously physiological problems. In fact they still brought in evaluators before it was released. Plus it had a different ending.
 
Totally agree. I remember watching Lion King as a kid and everybody was talking about how dark the movie was, and all I could think was, "ahem, anybody seen Land Before Time?!"
 
XS
Totally agree. I remember watching Lion King as a kid and everybody was talking about how dark the movie was, and all I could think was, "ahem, anybody seen Land Before Time?!"
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The lion king is basically a rip off of Bambi and land before time as far as that goes. The first ones plot and story is incredibly dark, to te point more adults watch it than kinds. The sequels were definitely kids movies but the first one is incredible in that regard. I really want to see the cut footage from it. They said it woul have been better but it would have had a PG or higher rating due to how graphic it was. The part were the T. rex jumps on the moms back, it shows a shadow of it happening with flesh being torn....in the original uncut, that attack was shown in full and it was graphic...
 

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