Since nobody's listening: I have taken X (Ecstasy) 3 times.
Now if I've lost any credibility, I don't care. I'm trying to educate, not tell other people to take drugs. If I'm violating rules and spirit of the GTF, then fine, ban me right now.
I did various drugs from the time I was 17 until 22 (I am 28, now). A good friend introduced me to it on the day before I began 12th grade. We sparked a joint that day, a few hours after watching the 1991 Belgian GP. I felt relaxed, very happy and giddy, and laughing my head off. It was a great bit of stress relief. But it didnt take hold of me. I wasnt looking for my next fix, I wasnt expecting to do it again and again. But I smoked when it was available at parties, but nothing like that first time.
I didnt touch anything for a year and a half, but soon I was hanging around others whom were smoking weed more and more often. I refused when more important things had to be done. But I noticed was smoking more often, and the high was decidedly different. It was no longer the nice, amazing feeling, it was just a little something to relax me after a days work.
But some of these other people were taking other things; hashish, LSD, Ecstasy, Whip-Its. One fella even smoked banana peels (I even told him it was a crock
something I had learned in school when I was about 14!) to get himself high. So I had eventually taken acid (a few times) and X three times. Acid was very crazy. If you want to talk about a loss of control, then thats acid for you. You become a shell of a man, and you are trying to figure out the world around you. I can see how many people might get scared and paranoid after taking the drug. Your perceptions of the world is not the same after taking it, Id venture to say.
Ecstasy is a bit of a joke. The first time I took it, I was very relaxed, very stress-free. Nothing seemed to bother me. Dancing was easy to do. (Too easy!) I thought all those rumors of not drinking enough water and Parkinsons Disease were just urban myths. The last time I took it, I had a wonderful feeling, I was hallucinating and so relaxed I was speaking in tongues in the car ride home (I was amazed how much Spanish I had recalled!). However, the morning after the next, I was waking each morning for a week with a headache and queasiness like nothing Id ever felt. Who the hell wants to start every day like that? Not me, thank you. I never touched another illegal drug again. I dont even like taking aspirin unless I absolutely need it (Ill sooner take a nap to cure a headache).
I wish I could say the same for some of my so-called friends. Many didnt give a damn after I quit
they have to make sales elsewhere. I know one or two are going to be a drug dealers the rest of their life. Thats what theyve chosen, and very little will ever get them to change. They are always going to be paranoid, always fearful of the law, and always doing something illegal. Thats what they have to live with.
Another buddy has been smoking weed consistently for about 8 years now. He probably smokes out about 3-4 days a week. And he doesnt listen. Fortunately, he hasnt done anything harder for years, but his arguments for continuing to smoke are transparent, useless, and absurd. He really believes he must smoke (whines about a back injury that happened in 95) and there is nothing wrong with it. I convince him to quit, but my questioning really bothers him. About every other month I plead with him, as only a good friend can, but he continues to do it. Hes an adult, so I let him be with his decisions. I told him Id help him as long as he quits, but so far, no good.
There are others: Some kids I know persistently take drugs, and they are far worse off. They wont hang out with anyone who doesnt do drugs. They are so far gone, so trapped. And they created the trap. They dont know of any other culture than drugs. They think they are better off, but its all delusional theories behind all their nonsense. They are addicted.
So Ill wrap this up by saying: Dont do drugs. Even though the first few times may not harm a thing, you will get wrapped up with people you dont like, will start to change your lifestyle in a most assuredly negative way, and will see your good friends change largely for the worse. Im not for criminalizing drugs, Im for sensible education of drug use. And its very likely that drugs will have a 99-out-of-100 chance of negatively impacting your life. If you think youre that in elite 1%, then good luck
you will need it.
