Confession Booth

[Talon]

I'm normally not one for really thinking like this.

I've been contemplating suicide tonight. My drunken Mom came in and yelled at me for not saying hello to her friends (I did) and something.She then grabbed my head, while her boyfriend ripped all the cords out of the wall and smashed my TV. I was sitting in a chair when she pulled me to the ground and I hit my head on a dresser. I cried for about 30 minutes with a knife in front of me.

I have no one to talk to.

That's not worth it, and you know it. I've read your posts on here for a while and I know that you're a smart kid, and I know you know better. Your drunk of a mom acting that way has nothing to do with how you act or who you are, so there's no reason for suicide. What you need is a new place to live and new people to care for you, and your life will get better.

 

[Public'sTwin]

Call the police. You need to get out of that house and get psychological help immediately.

Emotional help.

My first point would be to assure you that you have not confessed anything, as you have done nothing wrong. You should not feel ashamed about coming here or telling us about what happened.

I know this hour is difficult, but if you have any other family members—aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins, older siblings, or your dad: call them. Just get them on the line. Let all parties hear you, and if either your mother or her boyfriend approaches, let it be known who you're talking to. Just establish an outside witness and emotional line.

Suicide is not the way you want to egress from this situation. Believe me.

 

[GT_Prologue5]

Before reading said replies I threw my idea out of the window. I have a fear of harming myself. I understand what is said. I have no idea what to do. I can't just call magic numbers and leave. What will happen if I go? Where will I go? What happens if I stay? These are my fears.

I'm very glad you all had words to say. I had no one to talk to (late at night, phone taken)

I do think like this on occasion. But I fear pain. So what do I do next? (be specific)

Public's Twin, I know it wasn't a confession. It was a plea for help.

 

[DJones]

It is very hard to be specific on advice like this because it varies so much from person to person.
I agree with them though you need to call somebody at least to talk to. You need to tell someone about this. Do you have any family that you can confide in? Maybe someone that is also close to your mother. They might try to talk to her about it and find out why she's raising get child this way.
Btw knowing your age (at least generally) would help a lot with the type of advice given.

Jones

 

[photonrider]

Hey!
Hang in there guy! Your innocence is refreshing - and is reflected in the posts you make. I'm glad you are strong enough to defeat the urge to hurt yourself. Having a knife waved in your face is horrifying. I guess all of us here on GTP can identify with your trauma. Not every member of GTP is articulate enough to say the right thing to you, though. I, myself, was horrified to read about what you are going through.
To be treated like that is frustrating and I'm sure you feel helpless - but YOU ARE NOT alone.
You may be surprised how many are behind you.
Chin up, laddie.
THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

 

[GT_Prologue5]

Btw knowing your age (at least generally) would help a lot with the type of advice given.

15.

I mean if I were to be placed in foster care, where would I go? My friends, my brother (only family member I love), my school, I mean I wish I could plead my Mom into AA. She's following the same path as my father, although I would not be very sad if she died. I live for the people, and yet I've been treated so awfully (not by family) that I've grown uncaring for family,

 

[Skython]

I'm normally not one for really thinking like this.

I've been contemplating suicide tonight. My drunken Mom came in and yelled at me for not saying hello to her friends (I did) and something.She then grabbed my head, while her boyfriend ripped all the cords out of the wall and smashed my TV. I was sitting in a chair when she pulled me to the ground and I hit my head on a dresser. I cried for about 30 minutes with a knife in front of me.

I have no one to talk to.

Call the police, there is no way you should put up with that, if they're doing all this than they should be in court facing charges. Or you should as said go to another home, like an Aunt or Uncle. You're what can't be called parents, will then be trying to find you, so they can drag you back home, pretending to care. Then you get the Police, who will take care of it, though your parents will probably be forced into AA, then afterwards just go back to drinking, then you'll

 

[DJones]

Talk to your brother about this. If he is older and has moved out talk to him now. If you both talked to her maybe you could get her to try and stop. If not there is always intervention. But if it comes down to reporting her talk to your brother to see if you could live with him. This is only a suggestion and I don't know if it will work since I don't know your relationship, but you must at least try. If your brother loves you like a brother should he will help.
My apologies about your father. I hope you, your brother, and gtp can get your mom to change her ways.

Jones

 

[Legendary]

Doesnt matter what you have there, the pieces can be picked back up later. Your school friends and brother will still always be contactable with things like phones and facebook.

The number one thing at anytime in your life is your safety and the safety of others. Your mum may be a lovely person when she isnt drunk but she is a danger to herself and people like you when she is. You cant stay there if this is to continue, get help and leave. As I said before, the pieces can be picked up later. Your normal life perhaps, your school, your family. For now just leave until it gets sorted out or your mum gets some help. You are 15, my age (for about one more month XD), and no 15 year old should be crying with a knife infront of them, especially when held by someone related to you.

 

[DJones]

Doesnt matter what you have there, the pieces can be picked back up later. Your school friends and brother will still always be contactable with things like phones and facebook.

The number one thing at anytime in your life is your safety and the safety of others. Your mum may be a lovely person when she isnt drunk but she is a danger to herself and people like you when she is. You cant stay there if this is to continue, get help and leave. As I said before, the pieces can be picked up later. Your normal life perhaps, your school, your family. For now just leave until it gets sorted out or your mum gets some help. You are 15, my age (for about one more month XD), and no 15 year old should be crying with a knife infront of them, especially when held by someone related to you.

He's right.
OT: Legendary I think you're the smartest minor I have met online.

Jones

 

[photonrider]

Specifically what you need is an adult you can trust - someone from an authorized organisation that can counsel you as well as offer practical help, and who is in suitable proximity. An uncle, an aunt, a cousin, a friend who is familiar with the problem may also be helpful.
Someone from Alateen (children of alcoholics) could also be helpful.
A priest - if you have been reared with a background in any type of religion - could also help.
You may have a fair rapport with a teacher - they could also help if you talk to them about it - especially if this is an ongoing problem.
Any one of these people could help in getting your mother into AA, which may be a start towards resolving the problem and strengthening your relationship with your Mom.
I'm guessing here that both you and your Mom are possibly missing your Dad. This leads your Mom to look for company elsewhere. You both need each other. Please don't take my words wrongly. I enjoy reading your posts. You have been on almost a year now. Your Intro thread BTW is on the last page og the Intro Board and I must say that reading it shows me that you have come quite a ways at GTP.
The world is short of good people right now. You are a nice guy - so don't give up on us, either!

 

[Legendary]

He's right.
OT: Legendary I think you're the smartest minor I have met online.

Jones

I try my hardest .

Seriously though, there are few more of us like me on this forum. Keep an eye out, this forum has definitely bred a few .

 

[NocturnalPS]

Fortune Cookie "Accept the challenges, so that you may feel the exhilaration of victory."

I wish for everyone to be well and enjoy every moment of life.

 

[DJones]

I try my hardest .

Seriously though, there are few more of us like me on this forum. Keep an eye out, this forum has definitely bred a few .

What's funny is I say that yet I'm only 17... Birthday in a month woooooooo!
In most places just about 18 means you're well educated and a mature human being. I say in most places because I'm american, sitting in america, and looking around at my peers wondering why their maturity development flat-lined some time around sixth grade.

I have noticed what you have said is true. I think its because of the people on here being some of the nicest people I have ever e-met. (just made that one up) Joining this forum is much like joining a family. Even if you're that one cousin that really doesn't say much... But hopefully not the redheaded stepchild

 

[Legendary]

What's funny is I say that yet I'm only 17... Birthday in a month woooooooo!
In most places just about 18 means you're well educated and a mature human being. I say in most places because I'm american, sitting in america, and looking around at my peers wondering why their maturity development flat-lined some time around sixth grade.

I have noticed what you have said is true. I think its because of the people on here being some of the nicest people I have ever e-met. (just made that one up) Joining this forum is much like joining a family. Even if you're that one cousin that really doesn't say much... But hopefully not the redheaded stepchild

I suppose this forum is a big family, there are really no idiots out on these parts of the forum. When you sign up to a forum you join expecting a plethora of idiots and there is not much you can do about it. This forum is different, the rules are stricter and the people I am speaking are generally only found in the GT5 sections. If you stay clear of that area unless it is really needed you are bound to find the same person twice. That person will be talking to another person with such respect and friendliness.

We arent strangers to eachother on GTPlanet, almost everyone is friends with another and we are willing to share knowledge and even a joke with other people here. Thats what makes this such an enjoyable place and that what makes this place feel like a big family.

As a side note, my birthday is also in a month (one more month till I can drive, not like I have been waiting my whole life or anything ), hence this comment above.

...You are 15, my age (for about one more month XD), and no 15 year old should be crying with a knife infront of them, especially when held by someone related to you.

EDIT: And concluding my last two posts with something I forgot to point out. Andrew, you do have people to talk to, at no stage in your life will you ever have nobody to talk to. Heck, even if you dont want to talk to anyone else, we are, as mentioned in this post, like one big family. Feel free to keep talking here, it helps and we are always willing to offer our assistance and thoughts.

 

[Tesla]

I suppose this forum is a big family, there are really no idiots out on these parts of the forum. When you sign up to a forum you join expecting a plethora of idiots and there is not much you can do about it. This forum is different, the rules are stricter and the people I am speaking are generally only found in the GT5 sections. If you stay clear of that area unless it is really needed you are bound to find the same person twice. That person will be talking to another person with such respect and friendliness.

We arent strangers to eachother on GTPlanet, almost everyone is friends with another and we are willing to share knowledge and even a joke with other people here. Thats what makes this such an enjoyable place and that what makes this place feel like a big family.

As a side note, my birthday is also in a month (one more month till I can drive, not like I have been waiting my whole life or anything ), hence this comment above.

Agreed I've only been here since the end of September, and the atmosphere is just so friendly and relaxed (as long as you ignore the GT5 section ) that it feels like my second home

And good luck driving 👍 Despite being able to pass a theory test at my age, I still have to wait another two years

 

[Legendary]

Agreed I've only been here since the end of September, and the atmosphere is just so friendly and relaxed (as long as you ignore the GT5 section ) that it feels like my second home

And good luck driving 👍 Despite being able to pass a theory test at my age, I still have to wait another two years

The wait sucks, I have been waiting ever since I have known what a car is . I am glad the wait is about to be over though, I am so pumped .

 

[Turbo Lag]

And good luck driving 👍 Despite being able to pass a theory test at my age, I still have to wait another two years

It's sad that people still manage to horribly fail such a simple test, during my test, I heard many people managed to fail with a 50% score. But anyway, I know what the wait felt like, but when those two years do pass, trust me, it'll be well worth the wait. 👍

 

[Legendary]

It's sad that people still manage to horribly fail such a simple test, during my test, I heard many people managed to fail with a 50% score. But anyway, I know what the wait felt like, but when those two years do pass, trust me, it'll well worth the wait. 👍

Well spoken Leon, well spoken .

 

[Danny]

I suppose this forum is a big family, there are really no idiots out on these parts of the forum. When you sign up to a forum you join expecting a plethora of idiots and there is not much you can do about it. This forum is different, the rules are stricter and the people I am speaking are generally only found in the GT5 sections. If you stay clear of that area unless it is really needed you are bound to find the same person twice. That person will be talking to another person with such respect and friendliness.

We arent strangers to eachother on GTPlanet, almost everyone is friends with another and we are willing to share knowledge and even a joke with other people here. Thats what makes this such an enjoyable place and that what makes this place feel like a big family.

D'awwwww.

 

[Legendary]

D'awwwww.

Shall we make an exception to the 'no idiots outside the GT5 Forum' part of my post just for you Daniella ?

 

[Danny]

Oh Kylie, you charmer.

 

[CAG_Theory]

I am a Roman Catholic Externally, but deep inside my heart i believe in Buddhism... Not every aspect, but most of it.

For the past 3 years, I been trying to be selfish and just thinking only about myself that Im the most handsome guy than the rest of the world and the most unique person ever to boost my mental strength and to throw my garbage past which i don't want to go back forever!. And i try to resist all every girl now because i know they just like my face but my attitude is even more worse than they could imagine. And right now, i just want my dream job from mission impossible to mission domination.​

 

[MarinaDiamandis]

I am a Roman Catholic Externally, but deep inside my heart i believe in Buddhism... Not every aspect, but most of it.

For the past 3 years, I been trying to be selfish and just thinking only about myself that Im the most handsome guy than the rest of the world and the most unique person ever to boost my mental strength and to throw my garbage past which i don't want to go back forever!. And i try to resist all every girl now because i know they just like my face but my attitude is even more worse than they could imagine. And right now, i just want my dream job from mission impossible to mission domination.​

I don't really understand where you're coming from as I was a 'I suppose so' almost-agnostic Christian before becoming a Buddhist, but do you meditate? If so do you chant/count on mala? If you are open to becoming Buddhist it will help sort your head/internal conflicts out.

May I ask why you went down the route of being vain and selfish?

 

[nk4e]

I am a Roman Catholic Externally, but deep inside my heart i believe in Buddhism... Not every aspect, but most of it.

For the past 3 years, I been trying to be selfish and just thinking only about myself that Im the most handsome guy than the rest of the world and the most unique person ever to boost my mental strength and to throw my garbage past which i don't want to go back forever!. And i try to resist all every girl now because i know they just like my face but my attitude is even more worse than they could imagine. And right now, i just want my dream job from mission impossible to mission domination.​

I wonder how many prayers is that one, if you went into confession.

 

[Red-Rice]

When I was young we had this long lecture in class about not stealing, right after I went and stole some marbles from the teachers desk. It felt so good to be bad =]

 

[itsbenjibrand]

I never bring writing materials to class and always borrow from the teachers, rarely do I return them.

 

[LamboLP700-4]

I pinched a baby. I'm so sorry but I did.

 

[KingBrianThe1st]

I've done terrible things.

 

[Skython]

I never bring writing materials to class and always borrow from the teachers, rarely do I return them.

That is game for me, gameplay is simple, ask for a pen, and see if they ask for it back, one point if they don't ask. It's very simple and the rewards are good.

Now, a confession... I conce downloaded an entire for free At least I made up for it when I bought the album