The General Relationship Thread

[Johnny1996]

Thanks @V0RT3X. I actually found out that one of the local Dairy Queens is hosting a car show today, so I might be in luck. Problem is (there always has to be something ) there's three or four Dairy Queens in my area. The show is at one of the ones a little further away from where Girl B and I live so it might not be hers, but I'd still be at a car show so I can't complain if I can't find her. Either way it'll be a pretty decent day. It's just a matter of actually being able to go that might get in the way.

EDIT (about 5 hours later): I don't think I'll be going anywhere today. So today other than watching the race is a total bust.

 

[phillgt2002]

Maybe I'll try harder.

Nah , not worth my time.

 

[TJ13]

So I have been in this like detective mode, trying to figure out why a simple 8 mile drive takes nearly 2-3 hours for her. (I will explain on how I come to this)
Last time I was with her was Friday. It takes me about 50-55 minutes to go from my place to the park (Where the musical was). Musical gets done around 8:45 pm. We sat around for awhile until 9:30 pm. Said our goodbyes and love you's and kiss and we take off.
I drove back home and so did she. I get a message at 10:27 pm saying she just got home. I get home at 10:33 pm.

So I am wondering why the long drive or something and I am thinking of all these possible situations and whatnot. There is no construction or anything like that, could delay the time but even if it was it still wouldn't be nearly 2-3 hours worth.

 

[BobK]

So I have been in this like detective mode, trying to figure out why a simple 8 mile drive takes nearly 2-3 hours for her. (I will explain on how I come to this)
Last time I was with her was Friday. It takes me about 50-55 minutes to go from my place to the park (Where the musical was). Musical gets done around 8:45 pm. We sat around for awhile until 9:30 pm. Said our goodbyes and love you's and kiss and we take off.
I drove back home and so did she. I get a message at 10:27 pm saying she just got home. I get home at 10:33 pm.

So I am wondering why the long drive or something and I am thinking of all these possible situations and whatnot. There is no construction or anything like that, could delay the time but even if it was it still wouldn't be nearly 2-3 hours worth.

So let me get this straight... you're saying the interval from 9:30 to 10:27 is 2-3 hours?

 

[TJ13]

So let me get this straight... you're saying the interval from 9:30 to 10:27 is 2-3 hours?

That was the night I was with her.
Last night it was she left at 9:17 pm and got home at 11:54 pm

 

[BobK]

That was the night I was with her.
Last night it was she left at 9:17 pm and got home at 11:54 pm

Ah, you'd left that part out.

Maybe she stopped off for a pizza?

Why not just ask her?

 

[TJ13]

Ah, you'd left that part out.

Maybe she stopped off for a pizza?

Why not just ask her?

I did and she said get over it. :/ I am guessing since it's close to that time of the month I think I might know why she is well either angry or something.

 

[V0RT3X]

Sounds like nothing to me.

 

[Johnny1996]

For those who are curious about an update on my situation, there is none. Why post this then? I just figure it's better than leaving you hanging.

 

[TJ13]

Well things have kinda smoothed over with my girl.
However, she did mentioned one thing.
She challenged me to a game of NFS.
I am going to accept the challenge since well how hard can NFS be?
I platinum most recent NFS games. from HP 2010, Most Wanted 2012, Rivals and the latest NFS game. To add I would of had Carbon on the PS2 completed if it wasn't for the game breaking it for me.

With that in mind I think I have the upper hand. Unless she somehow "cheats" to win. Which I have a funny feeling that could happen.

Might get to see her on Thursday (Pending on how she feels and the weather (Rain Stay Away))

 

[Com Fox]

A bit late but...

It should be called the Too Much Social Media law. Expectations are way too high these days IMO. Friends and gf's have been trying to suck me into social media for years and I steadfastly refuse. My son who is around the age of many of you here is pretty much the same. He has a simple facebook account and that's about it. Rarely uses it and doesn't spend any time following anyone else, even his girlfriend.

I really didn't want a Facebook account, but I pretty much hadsince if I don't I'll lose touch with all of my friends since most of them are Social Media crazy.

 

[Johnny1996]

Note that this girl I'm about to tell you about is a completely different one than either of the two I've recently mentioned, and I don't need any advice on any of it. I just simply want to give some advice and back it up with a personal story to help reinforce that advice.

I originally typed this out in whole and previewed it before posting this, and it ended up being lengthy, so I broke it down into three parts. The whole story is pretty long so I shortened it but still kept any and all details that I thought were important. It surprisingly wasn't the emotional roller coaster that I thought it would be to write it, and I definitely feel better now that I have it out of me. Before this it was just me and a friend that knew any of this and quite frankly, I needed to let go.

In advance, if you actually took the time to read the whole thing I appreciate it. I guess you could say I'm trying to help someone get what I couldn't have, and even if it's just some random Joe that isn't a registered user who I've helped, it'd mean a lot.

Spoiler: Part 1/3

Two and a half years ago, I developed a simply huge crush on a classmate. It was pretty much love at first sight so to speak, as it started when the teacher gave us new seats and I was now sitting beside this girl; even though she'd been in the class the whole year this was the first time I actually saw any of her. This seat change came in early January and school ended in early June. I could never grow the man parts to open up to her before school let out, but a week and a half to two weeks later I found her on social media and opened up to her there. We became friends though not really all that close. My plan was to hang out with her a few times and ask her out if I felt it a good and safe move to do so, but my fear of rejection prevented that. Plus some insecurities got in the way too. Two months after I had initially opened up to her I found out she was moving. It was only an hour away but it did damage nonetheless.

I remember I was out with friends all day but still talked to this girl while I was with said friends and I had to hold back tears all day long because it was in the morning when I found out the news. Then when I got home late at night that's when things really got bad for me. I bawled my eyes out for about three or four hours. A handful of members helped me out that night, with the most notable being the same one I mentioned in this thread the other day, whose name I'm omitting for privacy on his behalf. The last thing I remember is not being able to breathe and feeling like my heart and veins were about to explode because I was crying so hard. When I woke up the next morning I cried again for at least an hour straight. Over the course of the next few days I'd continue to have crying spells but not as bad. Given things that had gone on in the past and how it affected me, I would not doubt that those things were a part of how bad it hurt finding out that the girl was moving. I had actually intended to use the time I spent going after this girl to help get my life turned around, which had already been pretty bad before she came along. And I must say, I was going a pretty good job at it too, which might have also led to all the pain.

After she was settled in at her new house a week later, it wasn't long after that that we just randomly stopped talking. I felt like it was all my fault that this happened (obviously not the moving away part though) and that she wanted absolutely nothing to do with me, so I stayed away. This was in September and I tried here and there to regain our old connection but to no avail. From this point until October of the following year, which takes us to this past October (2015), we barely interacted with one another at all. Then one that month day she randomly comes back to me all on her own, and we got closer than we ever were before. At one point we were going to go to a dance at her school as friends, but her mom shot that down since she didn't know me (which I don't have a problem with at all, as I can understand where she's coming from). Then just before Christmas she moved yet again. This time it was halfway across the country, and again shortly after we stopped talking. At this point, it's at the two year mark since I first started having feelings for her.

Spoiler: Part 2/3

This time around, it didn't hurt as much. I still liked her just as much as I did when she first moved away, and until this point I was always open to trying a relationship with her while she was still an hour away. When we stopped talking I again felt like it was all my fault so I stayed away. That, and even though I told her otherwise (which I know that I really should not have done), it was hard for me to talk to her as just a friend. They always say you can't be just friends with someone you love, so I guess you could say I at least somewhat know that now. This feeling of feeling like it was my fault wasn't helped by the fact that I bought her a card as a farewell gift and she said she didn't want anything and just to return it when I mentioned to her that I got her "something to remember me by" as I put it. The card never got to her, which would have happened before she left for her new home.

As I said, this point was the two year mark, so it was January (this year, 2016). Earlier this month made it two and a half years since I started to like her, and we hadn't talked since a day or two after New Years. Well guess what? Here her and I are yet again, with a connection again. She's still halfway across the country and I still like her quite a lot, but a relationship is out of the question. Since she moved there, I've given up on it but I still intend to be friends with her. I feel like we've gotten too close and have too much of a friendship, a bond, to not be friends. And I definitely can't just drop her, even if I tried my absolute hardest. She means entirely way too much to me for me to do that. I know what it feels like to lose a damn good friend, and I just can't put her through it. I can't. I really care about her and I really love her. I really do.

Spoiler: Part 3/3

So as you can see, even though these last almost three years have been so up and down, and definitely didn't go how I thought or expected them to, I wouldn't trade it or change it for anything. Not only has it turned me into who I am today, it also taught me a lot. That fear of rejection I had? Gone since the girl moved away the first time. It's like she took my fear of rejection with her, burned it and let the ashes out of a container while going down the highway. Shyness? That's still there and probably always will be, but it's not as bad anymore. As bad as it may have hurt, it helped me so much. So if there's anything at all that you take away from this, it should be this:

Your fears, your insecurities, or whatever else you have that might be getting in the way of talking to your crush (besides maybe just simply not knowing what to say), put it behind you and do it. Open up to them, ask them out, etc. And even if it doesn't go to plan, you'll come out in a better place, even if you don't realize it at first or if it doesn't happen at first and even if it's in a small way. Will it be easy? No. But will it be worth it? Yes. So just do it. It's your loss if you don't.

 

[MoLiEG]

Awful.

Let's see. Because of my job, sometimes I'm required to do some trips outside Mexico City. On Friday, My boss told me I would become the new Account Executive for one of our biggest customers, but I did not have any trips scheduled, and on Saturday, I told my fiancee exactly that, that I had no trips programmed, that I had nothing to do outside the city for now, and that I, pending the confirmation of the president of the company, would be taking that new role.

On Monday I recieved the confirmation, and I was told that I had to do a trip to Guadalajara for 2 days, Wednesday and Thursday. Naturally, I inform my fiancee about this... aaaaand she gets mad at me... telling me that those things are what make her think I'm cheating on her, that I'm a liar, the she wants to cancel our September Vacations... that if she finds out that I have an adventure I won't be seeing her again and other beautiful things...

Tell me, what did I do wrong?

BTW, I'm thinking about getting a new job, these trips are killing my relationship (even though I've only been out of the office 5 times this year)...

 

[Team THRT Drift]

BTW, I'm thinking about getting a new job, these trips are killing my relationship (even though I've only been out of the office 5 times this year)...

Let's put aside the relationship for a second here. Do you like your job? Does it pay well? Is it an easy job? Is the commute manageable?

You don't necessarily leave your job because of your relationship. She's your fiancee so she loves you; she has said yes.

Tell me, what did I do wrong?

Nothing, really. However when you are pending confirmations and trips and whatnot don't give her a definite answer because you don't know either. If she asks and you're not sure explain the situation.


Just talk to her. Sit down and talk. Clear up whatever doubts or insecurities she has (they'll be insecurities not doubts, don't worry).

It will be fine. Don't worry. Just talk to her.

 

[MoLiEG]

Let's put aside the relationship for a second here. Do you like your job? Does it pay well? Is it an easy job? Is the commute manageable?

You don't necessarily leave your job because of your relationship. She's your fiancee so she loves you; she has said yes.

Nothing, really. However when you are pending confirmations and trips and whatnot don't give her a definite answer because you don't know either. If she asks and you're not sure explain the situation.

Just talk to her. Sit down and talk. Clear up whatever doubts or insecurities she has (they'll be insecurities not doubts, don't worry).

It will be fine. Don't worry. Just talk to her.

On a scale from 0 to 10, a 7.

It doesn't pay that good but it's better that my previous 2.

Boring, but easy.

I didn't give a definite answer, I just said "I don't have anything to do outside the city at the moment".

She said that I shouldn't promise things I can't do, but I never used the word "promise" at any moment

I've tried to talk to her today, but she is just absolutely mad at me. Today is one of those times I need her the most and she just turned her back at me...

 

[Team THRT Drift]

I just said "I don't have anything to do outside the city at the moment".

Yeah don't say that. Explain what's going on at work. Just say you're not sure.

And she'll cool down don't worry. It's just one of those days I guess.

Keep your chin up 👍

 

[V0RT3X]

Like @Team THRT Drift said, it seems like a communication issue. Just tell her exactly what's happening and reassure her that it's just business trips and nothing more. If you don't tell her she will automaticly assume the worst.

 

[MoLiEG]

Yeah don't say that. Explain what's going on at work. Just say you're not sure.

And she'll cool down don't worry. It's just one of those days I guess.

Keep your chin up 👍

Trying, but it's just too hard.

Like @Team THRT Drift said, it seems like a communication issue. Just tell her exactly what's happening and reassure her that it's just business trips and nothing more. If you don't tell her she will automaticly assume the worst.

I've told her just that but she still thinks I do this on purpose, that I'm going to cheat on her and other sweet things.

I've been completely honest and open with her I told her the thruth it feels like we can't be a happy couple no matter how hard I try.

 

[phillgt2002]

Don't quit a job that gives you financial stability over a relationship.

 

[Johnny1996]

I wish I could say something to help but the others have already covered everything I could think of myself.


I myself need a bit of advice, more so an answer. Just generally speaking, is it a bad thing that I'm 19 (and a senior in high school thanks to a late start in school), and would just like to settle down with someone already even though I've never been anywhere close to a relationship of any kind at all so far? Yet at the same time I'm kinda at that awkward "too old for games but too young to settle down" stage.

 

[phillgt2002]

Half awake response to your question. Take or leave it.

There is nothing wrong with that, though it may be a bit strange to some. I can imagine hearing "But there are so many people out there to experience." by potential friends of yours. That is absolutely true. I find myself thinking like you sometimes; why bother trying to skim around trying to make a relationship when you can find that one person?

The problem is that you start to make that relationship everything that matters to you. (I may have mentioned how internalizing a relationship is problematic for a person) You can get so enveloped by relationships that you'll not notice the problems within the relationship until it's over. Eventually, as you start dating, you'll understand that finding someone is a task of trial and error.

People break off and get back together all of the time as well. Really, that's because it's natural for us, as humans, to explore what else is out there. But, as time goes, you'll probably look back to the past relationship and find something that did work. Most likely for nostalgia's sake, but something that felt genuine for you, as compared to another.

Take time and explore. Waiting to find that right someone is not going to work that well. You will have to look, and sometimes, it takes people years and years.

It will take quite a few bad relationships to find one good one.

-

Just as a reminder for some.

Although I give out some sound advice, that doesn't mean I'm free of any problems. Everyone has problems, especially me.

 

[V0RT3X]

There is nothing wrong with that, though it may be a bit strange to some. I can imagine hearing "But there are so many people out there to experience." by potential friends of yours. That is absolutely true. I find myself thinking like you sometimes; why bother trying to skim around trying to make a relationship when you can find that one person?

The problem is that you start to make that relationship everything that matters to you. (I may have mentioned how internalizing a relationship is problematic for a person) You can get so enveloped by relationships that you'll not notice the problems within the relationship until it's over. Eventually, as you start dating, you'll understand that finding someone is a task of trial and error.

People break off and get back together all of the time as well. Really, that's because it's natural for us, as humans, to explore what else is out there. But, as time goes, you'll probably look back to the past relationship and find something that did work. Most likely for nostalgia's sake, but something that felt genuine for you, as compared to another.

Take time and explore. Waiting to find that right someone is not going to work that well. You will have to look, and sometimes, it takes people years and years.

It will take quite a few bad relationships to find one good one.



Just as a reminder for some.

Although I give out some sound advice, that doesn't mean I'm free of any problems. Everyone has problems, especially me.

Absolutely spot on. I'm in the same position. I want to find someone to love and be with forever and all that guff. Anyone who isn't long term relationship material is not worth my time and all that. I realized that it's probably not the best way to do things. I embelish a lot to myself when it comes to the ideal girl. Actually, since I haven't been in a proper relationship, I am afraid of entering one. I had the chance to date someone in senior year that I knew right of the bat would be a fling, so I turned her down. I probably should have gone along with it in hindsight.

 

[Johnnypenso]

Awful.

Let's see. Because of my job, sometimes I'm required to do some trips outside Mexico City. On Friday, My boss told me I would become the new Account Executive for one of our biggest customers, but I did not have any trips scheduled, and on Saturday, I told my fiancee exactly that, that I had no trips programmed, that I had nothing to do outside the city for now, and that I, pending the confirmation of the president of the company, would be taking that new role.

On Monday I recieved the confirmation, and I was told that I had to do a trip to Guadalajara for 2 days, Wednesday and Thursday. Naturally, I inform my fiancee about this... aaaaand she gets mad at me... telling me that those things are what make her think I'm cheating on her, that I'm a liar, the she wants to cancel our September Vacations... that if she finds out that I have an adventure I won't be seeing her again and other beautiful things...

Tell me, what did I do wrong?

BTW, I'm thinking about getting a new job, these trips are killing my relationship (even though I've only been out of the office 5 times this year)...

I never would have suggest this 10 years ago but I see things a little differently these days. I've been in this situation myself and badly mishandled it and learned my lessons the hard way. First thing I'd do is look at myself. Is there something I'm doing that is causing her to be insecure? This is key. Many women are very insecure at heart and having a man who travels and spends time away from home, especially overnighters, can bring out the worst in some. Do you keep in touch while you're away? Do you call her at night to talk to her about her day? Are you doing what you think you must do to reassure her that all is well and you're being an upstanding boyfriend/fiance'?

If you are doing your best in that department, the next step for me would be to ask her what she thinks you could do to reassure her while you are away that you are being faithful. Ask her why she needs constant reassurance and try to find the root cause of the problem. Maybe she's been cheated on. Maybe her mom was cheated on etc. Put the ball in her court to come up with some potential solutions but, IMO, I would take quitting your job off the table. Reason why is, if you are doing what you think is needed to reassure a reasonable person, then the issue is not with you or your behaviour but inside of her and quitting your job won't make it go away. You'll always have to deal with other people while working in just about any job and if you quit her insecurities will pop up somewhere else. Your goal has to be to find a way around this, not quit your job.

Putting the onus on her to find a way to help things opens up a can of worms. For example, she might ask you to text her every 5 minutes or send a picture every 5 minutes showing where you are and who you are with. Do you want to do that? Do you think that is reasonable? Do you want to live that way? Do you want to have to be constantly in touch with her and deal with the rage that will inevitably ensue when you aren't able to do so?

I don't envy you but your best bet is to look at yourself first and make some changes if you feel they are necessary, then take it to her and get dialogue going and see what happens.

 

[TJ13]

Well I still have a girlfriend, still loves me, (or in her words "so far")
Although she got mad at me on Friday, because I started snooping a bit too much
Now she is back to her normal self. (Well just about)
Not been feeling the best with pain (Teeth again) and this time a bit of the tummy. Not like flu or anything just not right.
To confirm she is NOT pregnant.
Going to be a bit busy the next week or so and hoping that the week of the 17th, can get together and do something, maybe go out and eat (Subway?)
Other than that going on 3 months now. Russian/Ukrainian woman looking good.

 

[Johnny1996]

So my newest issue? I feel like the girl I'm interested in is way out of my league. The main reason being that she plays rugby and has a job, and all I'm doing right now is sitting on my ass. Granted I am thinking about getting a job, just I know not as much as I should be.

_______________

Wanted to wait until I had some peace and quiet and a clear state of mind before replying, that way I could really think about what I was gping to say. That's where things are at now, so with that being said, here goes.

I think a problem I have is that I get myself too caught up in hearing how people find the one who's meant for them in high school, the ones that end up being in a successful marriage for the rest of their lives with that person. I've obviously not had the chance to be with anyone. Well, I kinda have actually. It's more my fears that have gotten in the way than anything else, which has prevented anything from happening. That, and no one has ever really showed any kind of interest in me other than that one girl I mentioned in an earlier post, Girl A I believe I called her in said post. And me being 19 almost 20 and not even ever hugging a girl honestly makes me feel absolutely pathetic. I've never really ever been friends with a girl before. You might think of that girl I mentioned in my really long post the other day; that girl and I are now just two people who used to know each other after she up and just dropped me like a fly since I posted that. And I honestly don't believe I did or said anything to cause it.

But anyway, I pretty much feel like I'm running out of time to find someone here. I'll be a senior once school starts again which only adds to it. On top of that, I have just about zero confidence in myself and it just can't seem to change no matter what I do about it. If anything it gets worse. I'm also an extremely shy person and have really bad anxiety. You can probably imagine that gets in the way a lot too. So I think I feel like I'm screwed for lack of a better term once school ends, both for finding someone to be with and having friends. I only have one or two people who ever show any real interest in me for a friend. And there's no guarantee they'll be there after school ends. Also I seriously doubt I'll go anywhere for post secondary education; I'm most likely going straight to work. But I just can't help but feel like I'm screwed no matter how I look at it, for everything. I think what I need is a wake up call. And it's not a matter of if, but when it happens. And it's gonna hit me like a 50 pound sack of bricks. To the man area. On fire. Basically, it's gonna bring a hell of a lot pain with it.

 

[CinnamonOD]

So my newest issue? I feel like the girl I'm interested in is way out of my league. The main reason being that she plays rugby and has a job, and all I'm doing right now is sitting on my ass. Granted I am thinking about getting a job, just I know not as much as I should be.

You have your 3 wheeler, which you can consider a hobby, and you are willing to have a job, you'll be at the same level, rugby is a hobby for her and her job (considering it's not some white collar position) does not really give her a defined a social status.

Just tell me what's your situation with her right now and I'll see what I can advice you with

I think a problem I have is that I get myself too caught up in hearing how people find the one who's meant for them in high school, the ones that end up being in a successful marriage for the rest of their lives with that person.

I didn't find the one for me at high school either, but some of my friends actually have, and you know what? that's too 🤬 good for them, that's it.

And me being 19 almost 20 and not even ever hugging a girl honestly makes me feel absolutely pathetic. I've never really ever been friends with a girl before.

It's not, maybe most teenagers start having interactions with the other sex at earlier ages, but 19 is actually not late to start, even in a heavily sexualized country as the US.

As for the not having real female friends, I don't want to say that it is worrying, but it kinda is.

Just don't get to 40 like that.

You might think of that girl I mentioned in my really long post the other day; that girl and I are now just two people who used to know each other after she up and just dropped me like a fly since I posted that. And I honestly don't believe I did or said anything to cause it.

That's the problem, you might have had a chance with her but didn't do anything so she moved on.

That, or she cut all contact with you when she saw the chance (I've been told by some female friends that they actually do that a lot)

You've got a confidence issue, you need to fall for the "just be yourself" meme, someone will get attracted to you sooner or later.

 

[Johnny1996]

You have your 3 wheeler, which you can consider a hobby, and you are willing to have a job, you'll be at the same level, rugby is a hobby for her and her job (considering it's not some white collar position) does not really give her a defined a social status.

Just tell me what's your situation with her right now and I'll see what I can advice you with

All it really is now is just finding a way to open up to her since I don't really have a way to do so just yet. And it's pretty normal for me to feel like I'm not good enough for someone or they're out of my league. Not with everyone though.

As for your other points, my main issue in general is I need to quit worrying so :censored:ing much but I know that's something that's easier said than done. I wish I could have at least one female friend if nothing else. But it's probably too much to ask for. Starting to feel like I'm the problem and I just can't figure out how or why.

 

[Johnny1996]

So it's been half a week since I last posted anything here, around two weeks since I first posted here I think. Everything I've said in those two weeks can be forgotten now. Let's just say that on the same day I was finally gonna open up to the girl I've been talking about in here, she started dating someone else. It kinda hurt because for once in my life I actually felt like I was good enough for someone, like I actually had a chance. I did such a good job, at least to myself, of building my confidence as well as myself up, but it all crashed down in a blink of an eye. Don't get me wrong. I'm happy for her especially since the guy's a nice, decent and respectable one and she's supposedly coming off a rough ending to her last relationship thanks to the actions of the last guy. But it figures it would go like this for me. No surprise really.

Tldr, it's yet another case of "close but no cigar" for me, which is by every means the story of me life.

 

[V0RT3X]

So it's been half a week since I last posted anything here, around two weeks since I first posted here I think. Everything I've said in those two weeks can be forgotten now. Let's just say that on the same day I was finally gonna open up to the girl I've been talking about in here, she started dating someone else. It kinda hurt because for once in my life I actually felt like I was good enough for someone, like I actually had a chance. I did such a good job, at least to myself, of building my confidence as well as myself up, but it all crashed down in a blink of an eye. Don't get me wrong. I'm happy for her especially since the guy's a nice, decent and respectable one and she's supposedly coming off a rough ending to her last relationship thanks to the actions of the last guy. But it figures it would go like this for me. No surprise really.

Tldr, it's yet another case of "close but no cigar" for me, which is by every means the story of me life.

It's okay. You'll find someone else I'm sure. I've had that happen once or twice. Going back I've realized there have been quite a few girls that we're interested in me but since I don't know how signals work, I never got with any of them.

At least she found someone nice. So often it feels like a girl you like who is dating someone, is always dating a total jerk.

 

[Darla Starch]

So it's been half a week since I last posted anything here, around two weeks since I first posted here I think. Everything I've said in those two weeks can be forgotten now. Let's just say that on the same day I was finally gonna open up to the girl I've been talking about in here, she started dating someone else. It kinda hurt because for once in my life I actually felt like I was good enough for someone, like I actually had a chance. I did such a good job, at least to myself, of building my confidence as well as myself up, but it all crashed down in a blink of an eye. Don't get me wrong. I'm happy for her especially since the guy's a nice, decent and respectable one and she's supposedly coming off a rough ending to her last relationship thanks to the actions of the last guy. But it figures it would go like this for me. No surprise really.

Tldr, it's yet another case of "close but no cigar" for me, which is by every means the story of me life.