I know I haven't talked in detail about how things are going with my Girlfriend and that I haven't answered some of your kind replies. But what I have to tell and ask you know is very, very important.
I'm tired, exhausted, sad, devastated, etc. I want to move on from this. Every week, sometimes every 4, 3, 2 days, my gf comes up with something to start fights. For the last 12 months, there hasn't been a single week we haven't had some kind of disagreement, and to be honest, 95% of them are simply idiotic. It's no longer a matter if she mentally has this or that, if she suffers depression or not, if the hormones in her body make her extremely mad every time she has her period, NO. The fact is she is a terrible person.
She has accused me of being gay, fat, violent, childish, stupid, prone to punching her and our hypothetical kids, unfaithfull, has accused me of having an afair, has accused me of being lazy, has accused me of not wanting to be succesful, has accused of being mediocre, that she always has to say to me to do things that otherwise I wouln't do, that it was because of her I started my Masters Degree, accused me of not having enough money to make things happen, accused of not being interested in moving on with the weeding and things like that, accused me of only wanting ...
And not to mention some of the things, the "crimes" that have made her angry: Not having cash to pay a meal with her parents (I had my debit car that day, don't think I was broke that day), not having the world's most incredible marriage proposal, not having the engament ring she liked, not being able to pay for her own Master's Degree, not taking her hand at the doctor, not adressing her as my fiancé on an e-mail, not responding a whats app message early in the night (2am, when you can call me any time if there is a serious thing going on), asking her in the morning how she was feeling (yes, she did get mad once about that, the previous day she told me she thought she had a cold, and the next day when I asked how she felt, she got mad and said I didn't pay attention), joking about how expensive was a parking lot, joking about how I was not in time several days we met (all of them because of valid reasons)... you get the point, right?
I did everything for her, I put up with her rage, her insults, her lack of confidence on me, her whims, her disrespect to myself, my family, my dog, the way she made me fear her, every single of her desires... and now, she decided to make a great deal about something as STUPID as some Facebook likes one former co-worker gave to some of our pictures, to tell me I'm a liar and that I had an affair with her. I explained it everything to her, told her she did not have to worry because she isn't even a friend of mine, that she means nothing to me, that I'm completely loyal to her, that yeah, we worked together for a mere 4 months, that we did saw each other after leaving that job a few times just to see some job things and that yeah, I saw her like other like 3 other times but alongside other former job colleagues, but that's about it... didn't cheat her, told the truth, and she is still trying to make me feel horrible, that she was just the victim...
So, bottom line... did I really do wrong, did I cheated? Am I the monster she thinks I am? Should I really keep trying to make things right? I deserve the treatment I'm receiving?
I Love her, but I'm tired of dealing with this every single week...