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- AdamWeller_
Oh boy, Valentine's is coming.
For months I've been waiting for the time to say to someone I've known for years that I really like her... And now I feel way too scared. I'm extremely unstable, and if I were to get crushed by her or saddened by something I'd probably go into my usual tailspin. This year, I'm not sure I can afford to fall off the rails, with GCSE's, College placement, etc. to consider. Also, she's one of the few people I can trust out there, and I'm worried sick about losing that. She's been acting a little different (quiet) in the last week or so, which only adds to my fears.
I'm just very uncertain. I've been feeling more upset than usual lately for various reasons and I just don't know whether I'm able to take the chance... I mean, it could end up going well, but it could also drag me right down to rock bottom again. I don't want that.
*Sigh* If I knew I was letting at least one person down I'd love to just rid myself of all this stress, if you know what I mean. Plus, I'm not that sure if there's an afterlife, and whether I can follow motorsport if I got there... But that's another story.
For months I've been waiting for the time to say to someone I've known for years that I really like her... And now I feel way too scared. I'm extremely unstable, and if I were to get crushed by her or saddened by something I'd probably go into my usual tailspin. This year, I'm not sure I can afford to fall off the rails, with GCSE's, College placement, etc. to consider. Also, she's one of the few people I can trust out there, and I'm worried sick about losing that. She's been acting a little different (quiet) in the last week or so, which only adds to my fears.
I'm just very uncertain. I've been feeling more upset than usual lately for various reasons and I just don't know whether I'm able to take the chance... I mean, it could end up going well, but it could also drag me right down to rock bottom again. I don't want that.
*Sigh* If I knew I was letting at least one person down I'd love to just rid myself of all this stress, if you know what I mean. Plus, I'm not that sure if there's an afterlife, and whether I can follow motorsport if I got there... But that's another story.