You should really man up. Not for you, but for the sake of your family.
I hear you. I’ve battled through my adult life in spite of a debilitating alcohol addiction.
I am alone, always have been.
Loved child, married well, a good father and mother, hell, even raised hundreds of kids in my profession. I’m not a sob story.
I just fell in love with the wrong mistress. The one that urges you on when you’re feeling down, but it’s the entire reason you feel down. Trapped in an endless cycle of highs and lows perpetuated by existential angst.
Not a day goes by when I don't consider sobriety. Not a day goes by when I don’t crave a drink.
The fact that I have a supportive family that knows my struggle is the only reason I’m alive right now. My daughter and wife would have me under lock and key if they weren’t so understanding.
Would you lock up your loved ones to stop them from doing something that they would consider habitual? A crack addiction, porn addiction, screen addiction, opioid addiction, shopping addiction?
I could go to rehab (for the cost of a new car) and purge my soul to a shrink. Or I can continue being a rather good member of society, and a pretty good family man, other than the occasionally binge drink insanity. I do a lot more good than bad, I promise.
Truth is, I’ve always been told to just do it “for my family”, but they’re more understanding than anyone.
Imagine having a cursed husband/Father and still maintaining a normal life. That’s what they do, in spite of me. They aren’t crying over spilt milk. They know that I might get 10 pints down on a weekday night and sit up all night watching Black Mirror. I’m no danger to them or the public at large. I might endanger my liver, but that’s on me.
This is clearly not what this thread was intended for, so my apologies.
I was off the site (and the web) for a bit. I might be back when I’m sober…
