I've been drunk to the point that I didn't remember falling into a fireplace. Long story, but I had to call my roommmate the next morning to find out why my elbow was mangled. I've woken up in unknown places, not knowing how I got there, or what her name was. Amazingly enough, I'm now married to her! I'm kidding. I've woken up behind the wheel in the middle of a cornfield, and no recollection of how I got there. That was in my young and stupid days.
When I outgrew the "Drink cheap, Drink alot" days, and shifted over to "drink a twelve pack to unwind", I get really

and then

alot. Then I fall down. After that I chug a mug of water, an aspirin and go to bed.
Nowadays, I'll have the occasional office party cocktail, and that's about it. In the past few yeras, I've been reducing my intake, because I get up too early to deal with any type of haze in my head.
Congrats to Boom. My uncle was in your shoes for twelve years (Special Forces Vietnam). Then woke up one morning and said "This stuff's for the birds" and hasn't had a drink in more years than I can remember.
AznAbyss: You are a Psychologists wet dream. Honestly, I can point out so many different ways to change your life. Easy things that can make life at home better, and your social life improve. Granted I'm not qualified in any way, other than been there done that. I'm noone you know, or want to, but want to offer this: sit down with your family, and ask for honest opinions about where they think you'll be in five years. Write it all down, don't say a word or defend yourself in any way. Just write it down. Then read it a few times, and write down your answers.
Just like this forum. Proper english makes a world of difference. And just like the real world, words mean next to nothing, the written word is what is binding. How often have you heard "Get it in writing"?
Maybe this should have gone in a PM, but there are a few of us here that can lend a helpful thought or two.
Best wishes.
AO